some confusion as I fall...

On the first day of the lunar CNY, I fell. Fell terribly. Just like on the playground slides, I slidded down the stairs, head-down.  The instance I missed my focus on the step and took a look around the carpark, I stepped onto empty air and fell faced down.  I screamed AHHHHHHHH~  The long smooth skirt was a mat which helped me to slide down effectively. with my arms as support,I protected my face/head.  Before I landed at the platform, I recalled what Cousin Ryan had told me, about his niece who fainted and collapsed onto the cafe table top, dislocating her two front teeth... I immediately attempted to clamp my mouth shut to protect my gigantic bug tooth! I swear I was still thinking and am utterly conscious of myself slipping down step by step.  You know what? I actually ended my biting into my lower lip so hard.  My front tooth chipped and now its uneven.  Following which, I was jolted so awake.  The first thing I did, ironically, was to pull down my skirt to cover my exposed butt. and then I slowly climbed up and touched my teeth to see if they were still intact, neglecting any bruises or pain I may have felt elsewhere.  My teeth were my primary concern.  And then I saw blood on my fingers.  Fresh red flowing blood.  Dad ran to my side and spewed some panicky words which I couldnt comprehend.  After rinsing blood off from my mouth, everything started to dim like a deepening overcast... despite me kicking my legs for blood to flow, No, darkness began to engulf, as though a dark force was taking over even though I could still make sense of things and hear words clearly to respond to them. This has been my second fainting experience.  I knew that I was going to faint so I warned the people around me. Mum grabbed onto my arm tightly.  I asked to rest in the car and soon enough, light returned.  No tears shed, only blood.  Leg was badly scrapped. Painful.  Bruised thighs. Broken teeth. Injured gum.  Swollen lips like Angelina Jolie.  Stiff arms.
I had sooooo much explanations to do whenever I step into someone's home or see people who stare hard at my hideous lips but made no rude comments.  I do joke that "bf hit me". Haha.

Shen Shen told me "from this, you can see how much your parents love you!".
My Shen Shen is Christian.  She added, "theres so many reasons to why you might have fallen!"
I do know that.

Mum told me "how am I gonna be fang xin for you to be on your own???"
Several hours later, "My heart is still so shaken because of your fall!"
I felt guilty for having her to worry over such things, despite how confident and independent I have always been. :(

This year, mum has become more superstitious.  I dont know for what reason exactly.  Maybe, because their generation is getting on by the years and she feels that its better to be safe than not? Perhaps having this safety-net provides her with a tad more reassurance and protection?  A lil too much superstition bothers me.

Why would I have fallen? Because of my ultra low heels? Or my sheer carelessness? Or for some other reason? Im confused.

Teeth still hurts. I am still so afraid that tooth might fall off sooner... Scap forming on my leg hurts.  Lips so swollen I look lika goldfish.  I cant bite hard, needa give time for my gum and teeth to recuperate. The kids will talk about it on Monday at school :(

Physical hurt is fine. I aint some perfect air stewardess anyway.  Thankfully I didnt hurt my head or my spine.

I think, I almost fainted because of shock.

Maybe Im a Vampire haha who fainted on the sight of blood and I do detest the scorching glare from the sun onto my face ...  extremely annoyed.