today O levels ended and guanyi told me behind me - our olevels are over, our sec 4 life has ended, we have graduated. and we wont see each other ever again.

is it true?

i did what i wanted today.

3 wishes, 2 burst but i fulfilled the last but i aint ahppy but what am i to do?

stop telling me to do otherwise because i am a stubborn mule. who doesnt talk it out. i use other forms. like sms or letters. i am a noob. so what?

i studied hard, but if the results dont come out, if i fail.(i mean not fail but dont succeed) i console myself that i have put in my best. but i am still hurt.

what am i to do?

Nothing.

leave me alone.

i went ps for lunch with jingjing today. and i packed all my worksheets to be recycled.

gone.

throw them away.

when things dont turn out right.

oh yea, i shredded paper yesterday, until so small but it was no use!

bluffed me.

and i...

aiya...

its over la.

and i dont care anymore.

and things linger as they are now.

i am void of feelings because i am numbed by studying.

and i couldnt feel guilt. happiness or lone. over what i've done.

just emptiness.

nevermind.

i will be away on thursday.

reflect reflect.

mum.

reflect.

and i got to lie to you.

sigh.

byebye.

ay.starsplash.today aint fun enough....

look at the name on the periodic table reading....haha

she wrote herself! its proof! XD

and my table is getting cleared soon.

a tree is being killed to produce this stack of paper.