Week 4.

"but you always look so happy whenever I see you".
Ive heard this #quote several times already.  I reflect.  And I wonder how this positivity has overtaken me these recent months.  I have not been this optimistic in the past.  Well, I still anticipate what is always gonna happen the other way round, but maybe because of that, I do not take failure that badly.  Maybe Ive began to live and let live, trying out new things, experimenting with whatever is in my hands, making mistakes and learning from them, letting nature take its course.
Maybe that is why I feel happier.
And people around me can feel my happiness.  Like some 'streetfighter a-du-gen' game, I could transmit my positivity to them.
I feel that I am trying my best at school.  But I know exactly what I needa work upon.  That's good.  That I am conscious of my weaknesses.  I needa improve on my disciplining skills. How I should educate the kids when they do something unacceptable.
There is this other very brilliant class that always presents me with challenges.  At times, I really have apprehensions stepping into the class.  But on hindsight, I learn a lot from them.  Their thought processes.  I undermined their abilities.  And Ive also picked up sarcasm skills to counter some kiddish responses.  It helps to maintain momentum in the classroom.  This class gives me a challenge and I am going head-on with the challenge.
I hear another student comment that he hates geog! Because the geog questions are very difficult to answer.  And yes, indeed.  Hopefully this knowledge of the difficulties they face will allow me to help them more appropriately.
Oh.  I have come to know my colleagues much better, this week.  I feel very gratified that my new colleagues have welcomed me so warmly.  I am gonna travel to BKK with several others this holiday.  How exciting, traveling with new people, getting to learn more about them! and more fulfilling it is to have to compromise and accommodate each other.  Im glad new people are willing to open up about themselves with me sharing snippets of secrets "Dont tell other people ah!" haha :p.  I am grateful that I have good colleagues at work.

It has been a very eye-opening week for me.  With many self-discoveries.
Maybe this is why I feel so very absolutely relieved that the week has finally ended.
So that I can give myself time to reflect.
Its Week 4. =)

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I like to blog when my mind is in a flurry. Because I slow down, take time to type and then my thoughts get reorganised on its own, into decipherable words and logic.