today is the day i need my friends, but after all they are my friends so they cant be there for me all the time. one is in Alaska, one must be somewhere in Malaysia... One day i will just suddenly disappear. I feel that now. Right now, can you fast forward my time to 50 years later so that I can disappear?
I dont know what you want anymore. I know that you want an apology but i have been doing this for 23 years now. Why am i still doing it?  i feel that its these situations that render me heartless, such that at work, every nice thing a stranger does, i feel so touched and it means so much. because, those actions are exactly what cold-hearted AY is unable to perform. You say that your heart has broken so many pieces. SO does mine, my is with jagged edges. I am a different person already. I think my heart has closed so many more layers.
Save me.