its one of those mornings. i awaken when i didnt wish too. and also that i didnt awaken cos i recall and i cry. i saw Uncle in a dream. it was initially an indian man but it sorta just transited into Uncle... he was being asked about work, and he said that his knee aches so he cannot stand for too long as all his bones are brittle already. I thought, I thought, that everything, illnesses and possesions would all disappear when one leaves the world? Ahhhhh crazy AY. cheys what are you thinking.
Its the last week of school next week. I might be taking things for granted, letting each day slip pass... Living each day.  Mum hasnt talked to us for almost a week now. More so between her and dad. Sometimes, i wonder whats the point of these cold wars, does it solve anything? Im not young anymore, why you doing this? and in the end feeling hurt personally.
I asked friends over lunch what their regrets were? friends, speaking out, lying. Well, I got mine now. The times I was always rude to mum and dad. But Im not the cheesy loving kinda daughter in the family, even though my heart cares alot, I know it.

Okay. I'll do something.



Goals: By end of my bond, Im gonna buy a car, to transport family here and there. But in the meantime, I will make my techno/dance music playlist on my computer and share it. Long-lost techno. How nice is it to listen to those beats that pull you deeper, and deeper.

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