feel so lost. like i needa counsellor to manage the family. even though we are a trivial 3some...

Today at NgeeAnnPoly Busstop, 151 came and all the nus peeps prepared to board the bus.. that's when I caught sight of a ezlink card on the ground.. and so I picked it up. What I thought was, someone has dropped it, if you didnt pick it up, someone else who strolls pass will also pick it up as it is still useful. I recall my friend once told me that in Secondary school. I recall the classroom which she told me so, when I saw the calculator lying on the desk. I replied, what if someone comes back to search for his calculator? she replied, but when the person comes back, you didnt take it, it would already have been claimed by another student. I remember the face who told me that. It made sense. Yes, it made sense. back to reality, i see this nus guy standing ahead of me looking back at the seat at the busstop which he has left, searching his pockets, and opening his wallet several times. but when he boarded the bus, he prived out a Passion ezlink card from his wallet. I ... was hesitant, whether it was him who dropped his ezlink cark.. but he had a passioncard so prolly it wasnt his?
so when i climbed onto a seat on the bus, i see him at the taptap machine with his friend, a lil of a worrisome and depressed look... and then i know that I should have asked if it was his. But i hesitated and now what do I do?
I kept replaying the scene of his worrisome look on my seat, right at the back of the bus where the horizontal row of seats are. and I searched my heart. I did not require an ezlink card. I had zero intention of of greed of another card or whatesoever. I simply picked up something that was left behind to safekeep, for emergency use in the far future. even after I bring it home, it would just lie in my cupboard. It wasnt for any amount of stored value within the card. I know truly I picked it up because i think that someone else who comes along, would also pick it up.
and so, AY made a decision. I was determined to clarify with the guy if the card belonged to him. so all the way till 151 turned into school at UCC, i hoped that he wouldnt alight, until central lib bus stop. and all through the journey, I rehearsed my script which I was going to approach him with. and yes! he alighted only at central busstop!!! so I tailed him! till he climbed the steps of the busstop i tapped him on his arm and asked " sorry, did you drop your ezlink card?" he replied with a pause and sad "yea......" and then i showed out my hand with the card. He merely blinked and retrieved the card and replied with a grateful thankyou. I hurried to explain "im sorry I didnt mean to take it, it was on the ground at the bus stop, i just picked it up... i didnt mean to........" with my, you know, embarassed smiles on my face... he simply replied thankyou, the second time. and i scrambled away, offcourse from my desired destination at the central forum. I hope, he wouldnt hate me for taking his card. such that he panicked while boarding 151. I hope he wouldnt think that Ima cheapskate. I hope that he is relieved and happy that he got his card back, and money not wasted. I didnt wanna claim it as mine at all. I only picked it up as it was still functional. But Im glad I had the courage to correct a mess that Ive created. Its the 2nd time. The first was in the bus when I passed a bag to my friend who alighted, when in fact the bag belonged to the passenger sitting in front of me. Im glad that I looked for the nus guy to clarify the card issue, else, I know for sure my Thursday would be ruined with guilt. Im like that.
But still. Somehow the thought that why I had that urge to pick it up, and why I had hesitated upon asking him that immediately,... haunts me.
is it the way I do things? the way I repsond to situations too promptly before me that I always get caught in a booboo?