Today I had a good chat with my 2 friends, we were connected by a common thread - our schools. It was a truthful talk and the more deeply they went, the more it brought out my fears that I have tried so hard to allay. That was when i realised it was I, who hasnt tried hard enough. rather than blaming , have you questioned your effort put in despite its strangeness to you? and it surfaced that it was my pride of losing whatever scholarships or benefits that i am currently receiving, that made it all an irrevocable situation of futility. Lower your pride, AnnaYeo. and. try harder. are you still alone? They tell you you arent alone. but. define alone, inline with my perceptions? or you arent alone in this rat race, or that you arent the stupidest? missed.