It was beautiful, but i have lost words to describe it; would you picture it then?
I feel decieved into a vitual world ... wheneever the phone is in your hands... I take it so badly, i could scream at you. Its as though I have been mislead.
Yesterday I scaled the Southern Ridges with my Singapore Studies Proj group mates. Unexpectedly, all 4 of them turned up. Can you belive it? Mere strangers accomplished such random things with me!:) Hort Park was beautiful, I would bring my students there! Never before have I felt this enthusiasm and anticipation regarding my future career as a teacher. It was totally well-maintained and manufactured, I wished all of Singapore's Greenery would be privileged with the same care. Reminds me of Mrs Ismail, my sec 4 Geog teacher - her Caixin planting sessions during class. Those were the innocent days.
The Long Long Path. Somehow, i wished i would walk on and on and on, away from cvilisation. where no one would bother me with my earphones plugged in. Will you walk it with me again? I dont know. On Henderson waves, we did random things. We did yoga. Breathing deep and out, disregard of passersby's glances. Because Huang Huan taught us "Imagine, that you are part of this World." I stared at the blue vast sky. Breathing deep materialises our minute existence. It was inspiring, on Henderson waves=).
It was roughly 8-10 km.. and you know what? NONE of them complained a word. We chatted random stuffs, walked random paths, took random photos. After dinner at Vivo we stared at the stars at the rooftop. Samuel stared hard, harder than me. He pointed out the faintest star. Did you love stars too? Stars were a secondary fetish for me, so mystical now. Stared at people, lights from sentosa, lights from the ports (in the south). I didnt want to go home. We played songs and guessed song names. Took turns. Till it was too late we had to abandon the night. I know the fact that with these lights, The city never sleeps; just that people go away...
If Im heartbroken, on the verge, I'll go walk the park, solo. From NUS to vivo. With my earphones, no one will know my background. I'll recall the route we have taken yesterday. Beautiful moments; Relinquish the fact that I am a part of this world.
I wouldnt get lost. Because im determined to complete the path. But i hope that day will never come. It would signify a totally lost AY. AY on the verge, when the entire world turns its back on me, and I wouldnt mind getting consumed by the forest.
Have you got friends who would do such random stuffs with you, walking the desolate woods, doing yoga publicly, lying on the platform seeings stars...? I stared hard, hoping the stars can decipher -the squirms within me. I'll back off so you'll live the way as it is.




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