I'll tell you a secret.
I'm fallin' into it again.
The darkest pit, probably.
Where my only wish was for time to fast forward, secs to mins to hours, days, weeks, months.
Where the only reason i have to be strong, was to be strong for mum.
I'm falling into it.

Dear friend, could i ask a favour?
Please, Please, please
Pull me up, when i fall too deep.
Please pull me up from the whirlpool.
Because, its a scary feeling.
So frightening i dont know when i might just collapse into...
Pieces.
when i need not hide my tears in AMKSS,
there's no place exclusive enough in NY to hide anymore.
I've been crying.
and i've fallen into despair-ation.
Please pull me up when i fall, too deep.