Yesterday, My parents quarrelled.
I guess i have been numbed by their coldness towards each other.
Their love and concern for each other seemed to have just diminished and BOOM!, lost over the years as i grow...
or maybe its masked so abstractly i cant decipher.
But yesterday it was so chaotic i simply shut my mind. I was preparing to change to go Yem's house to do PW but i didnt make it after all.
I felt like stone.
Not until this morning i felt i would break down in school.
This small family of 3 just seems to be vulnerable, on the verge of breaking apart, as though i'm the only reason they have to hold on...

Yesterday, mum cried.
Its like she has lost in a game, and was full of anguish.
But.
This is not a game.
It has happened so often i dont know how to react anymore.
My sleep didnt heal.

I wish to go to the beach or park.
just sit there. they would go with me.
but i wont leave mum alone at home.
i cant do it.









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