I got home early today!
i have placed the word - beng kui into my chinese mental dictionary.
yesterday i was staring at vectors and things were going haywire i almost went BOOM!

i have this stark realisation.
that exams arent anything much anymore.
its a bad thing.
with no pressures, no fears,
for i should fear.
failing has become a part and parcel of jc life. its nothing too startling to happen to me anytime soon...
tough papers are just that and i dont blame myself.

What is becoming of me?
wake me up.
omg.
the song wake me up when september ends...
by green day.
all too coincidental yea? XD

i'm not looking forward to anything.
Not even the trip to chiang rai.
maybe christmas will be nice, with Greenies...
in fact i cant wait to return from chiang rai.
Many NY friends didnt know i am an only child with no siblings...
but i have pseudo BROTHERS and SISTERS! =)
no, i'm not lonely.
except recently, i have missed-


Something just happened.

Guanyi will be leaving for poly.
=(
that's so sad.
when he called me to inform me so, i stoned for many many split seconds, and i couldnt get back to my bio anymore...
he means so much to us.
i wonder how i will be hnadling the last day of school when i see him...
=(

ay.starsplash. oh my... =(

let me emo for a day.