dear journal,
today i almost succumbed to the DEVIL within me to leave the school after the the break to go J8 for lunch and popular...
but i went to inform lilan nonetheless, for i cannot forget about her, as we've planned to go out together.
and guess what?
she encouraged me to attend the lectures for just 2 more hours before sch shall end.
and so, as i have promised to go buy asses books with her, I DIDNT PON SCHOOL!!!!!
and i felt so happy after that! =) haha!

okay, tomorrow i will only have 2 lessons so i want to go cycling... but nobody wants to go excpet FUNGI!!! anyway... see, i'm becoming bad to skip the talk in the hall again..... =(
and today i broke MY RULE oh god! punish me- i shall not eat for 2 days.
- to not come online till friday, because earlier on i signed in in msn , then checked my mail, then i felt guilty so i appeared offline.
but i didnt talk to anyone...
yet i still came online.... a whole bunch of excuses! yea...

sorry HUIRU!!!! if you are hurt... haha
but that was the way i felt, always the way i have felt back in amkss and everywhere what people comment about me.
but i'm different and i dont fit into anywhere easily as and when i like... =(
everytime ppl say sth i just listen and i reflect. yea.
but dont worry, i dont take it to heart, i will be fine after Emoing. SERIOUS!!!! =p !
just that previously, when i see,
DEVIL KILLS ME, WHEN I THINK OF YOU.


i went out with lilan to J8 today and it felt so fun, for i hadnt been with her for a long long time....
everyone says they miss amkss now....
but do we still have a reason to return there?

ay.starsplash.my devil still dwells. within.
xxxxxxxx. i broke my RULE!!!!!!