CHERYL LOW'S BLOG SONG MADE ME CALM DOWN
SERENE'S EMO POST MADE ME EMO
GP RESEARCH MADE ME FRUSTRATED
LOVELY WORDS MADE ME ENVIOUS...

why can ppl post their emo post but i have to hide.
why did i put emo posts and ppl will start commenting on it?
today i suddenly sank into MISSING.
i miss monsy and louisa and everyone.
suddenly i felt - why hadnt i heard myself being called BUN! for so long?
and then i emo.
because no one else on earth will ever call me that.
its one and only sepcial one.
and i wonder why i havent emoed in school yet,
and i wonder whether it is YOU, who were insensitive and said hurtful things to me, taht made me reflect and ponder and wonder why people did certain things....
that made me emo, that i can suddenly stay so quiet in my seat beside the window and begin ignoring people around me, like bubbly Pumpkin Ho.
sorry monsy. i should never doubt you. but as i compare my 2 years, now and previous, its so different.
yet i like my old one, where i can emo and no one will intrude.
I NEED YOU LOUISA!!!!!!
i wonder why i was able to talk so long with jingjing who is in TJC now, but when i saw monsy, it really reduced to a hi and a bye. like i have imagined.

and then i suddenly MISSED INVISIBLE AND I STARTED SMSING HER.
i didnt wnat to procrastinate anymore.
i am glad louisa nad i both have the eagerness to meet each other.
that's how she took 1 and 1/2 years to penetrate my shells.

i dont wnat to fall into another friendship net. a net with tangles and thorns to hinder my movement...

Yesterday yesterday jiayi revealed a part of her to me, i was surprised, but it isnt my right to find out more if she does not reveal on her own accord.
like how i might find ppl presurrizing.
luckily my protective shield is so... strong....
strong that i havent pierced with my ultimate diao.

ay.starsplash.randomemowordsxx