fatigue.
i feel like just sitting here at listening to daniel bedingfield's CD, but i want to spell it out.
i just changed my msn nic to- I want black and white- ay.starsplash 2/5 is MY fairytale. I<3ug.
i learnt more about how to describe my 2/5 friends, the boys especially, today.
2/5 0'50'60'7
I aint gonna ramble about my friends yet again like how reluctant and emotional i am, but its so real there's an obvious distiction between types of different people, how they fall into the trap of my life, how they tweak ME. How they are who they are in which they are Admirable.

Today, Ms lew invited 2/5 and 4/5 students to her wedding matrimonial... She looked grand, its my maiden experience at a Christian wedding and when she walked down that honourable aisle, i was touched, i dont know why, stupid me, but i almost teared, because my teacher for 4 years has finally settled down and begun a life anew, and how glad i am for her. To me, she will always be Ms Lew. even though she's married and whatever, i remember her as Ms lew, who had so much faith in me, and believed in me, all these while, but i guess it was too much for me to take to fulfill her wish to make her proud. Yet, 2/5 has grown as a class,and that's where i have learnt to be Who i am.

Took bus there, 74, wth, all the messed up info on meeting this and this and getting there, eventually everyone reached on their own, GOOD! I guess the blind shouldnt lead the blind and those who didnt do anything and wished to be spoonfed and led and YUCKY! and just yucks!
Leave me alone.
and so we waited for monsy and gang and dave and co to arrive and yup they came in a jiffy! haha...
amanda and i waited and soon zaiyou and leonard arrived.
I really wonder if people are really true, how bad rumours can be, hoe rumours can smear a person's goodwill and reputation. I thought since years ago, there had been rumours and talks about leonard and zaiyou being fake and disliking each other? i never believed, and always asked a REALLY MEH? and i give an otherwise reason for the party's action which is usually dismissed as me being Wu Zhi and blah! i believe what i see.
mum forced me to put on makeup which i eventually rubbed it all away on my way as the destination nears... ha! Not all 2/5 ppl went, but fine enough, carline didnt attend, as usual, her indecisive self, calling me at 1 plus pm to clarify how to get there... and she didnt make it... ... ...

after that (so sorry)! i left amanda at the busstop and took bus 165, i was praying i wouldnt take the same bus as the gang, for i was heading to amk hub... and dave, binghong, alvin, qingyun, xueyi and xingzhi met onboard! haha, OMG!!!! its all from 2/5!!!! and we went amk hub where i bought my clutch, so i need not that along my cumbersome bag to everywhere i go!!!! FINALLY MAN!!!! then guess what? i went arcade to play la!!!! In my girly dress, i go play childish games like hitting the man, then the spider web, where the ball lights up must step onto it those kind, and ALL of us played!!!! OMG, it was so fun!!!!
i mean, who else would play these childish games for 5 year olds with qingyun and I, Me, this biggest noob and still laugh until.... blah.... 4/5 friends wont do that. they would 'dniao'(make that stupid sound of lameness at me), or show me the lame look, or draw the 3 stripes down their face to represent lameness, or will be too involeved in their driving or the whatever 3 person machine... yet my 2/5 boys agreed immediately and played together, each one taking care of 1 or 2 balls... haha... and they kept taking turns to let us, girls have a chance to play, despite our incessant rejection because we are noobs.. yet they still... ... they were patient and taught me.
They are different.
We laughed and tried as best to attain the most coupons, things girls and boys wouldnt do together, they spent money to share childish games with us. Dave chose the Prize for the coupons with us, and they did not complain about what a lame prize we've gotton and exchanged for. We laughed at the 50 coupons for a packet of Ribena drink, 20 coupons for a primary sch pencil, we challenged each other to open the shaken canned pepsi we've exchanged for binghong who paid the most... and they didnt criticise or make the dniao sound, so the 3 stripes, or show me the lame look, they participated, in the STUPId photo taking of our not-worth-while prize exchanged with our coupons.
and there was this machine, my elephant did not come out for me to hit and in the end when the game almost ended, i PULLED IT OUT form the hole!!!!! OMG!!!!! laugh until i almost....... couldnt stop for the entire playtime... even on the bus home alone i thought about it and i smiled to myself like a lunatic la!!! OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!! we laughed TOGETHER at my stupid action. 4/5 people will comment - 'idiot la you...', 'what the hell', 'walau eh...'..... but the boys laughed WITH ME today.
because they are 2/5 boys. where the boys played with teh girls, where i was accepted by all.
Do you all know why i love 2/5 0'50'60'7 so much now?
because we are together.
because they will laugh with me,
because they will joke together, that means when one says something lame, the other wont walau eh or whatever, but they will add in to make it more fun.
and in the end we all laugh together.
thsi will never happen with me and guanyi or randy or JJ or xunhao or louis or ... blah.
and they didnt tease me about rj, which KL has been and never fails to do all along.
Because they are my friends.

and because this friendship is different.
different from the one i have with monsy or qingyun or aurina or kianlam or louisa...
they arent my true friends whom i confide in. but they are the ones
who made me loved and happy.
really happy.
something i have been struggling to find in class 4/5.
i love 2/5 0'50'60'7

where they laughed with me,
laughed together.
when they called me,
by my name.
where we talked -
the way we do when we are bored.

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i cannot explain my gratitude for these freiends further,
who asked me to inform them of any future outings...
who requested for such an outing for 2/5,
who desired the get together as a class,
who appreciated 2/5.
who didnt leave qingyun and i alone lingering.
Binghong who seemed so FAR as i have told him in my farewell letter to him...
HOW did we interact just like the same old days today?

this is just a Miracle.
which colours cannot display,
words cannot describe,
time cannot tell,
and my mind cannot predict.
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may the miracle last.
as long as 2/5 0'50'60'7 remains in our minds,
we wont be awkward with each other or ignore each other.
as long as...
we believe.