Tuesday

I was supposed to wake up to blog properly cos there was inspiration! and I was also home alone hence, in  AY's own world. But Ukiss released new photos that got me all hyped up and excited and somehow my Tuesday feels happy, and that everything for Korea trip is falling into place, the feeling is WONDERFUL. :)

Well, let me begin by the 'surprise' I saw on my desk this morning. Dad had left a post-it note and a red packet on my desk for my Birthday. I was thinking, why give me so early! My birthday is in JUNE! But well, I will be in Korea, and this Thursday is my Lunar Birthday so... He gave me quite abit, to help fund my korea trip too (volunteerily okay haha). I will save the money, and use it well. :) My Father, isnt good with words. I do not communicate with him often. But he tries. On the post-it note, he wrote a sentence that set me thinking. He wrote "Thank you for completing your studies...". Why did he thank me for that? Wasnt it for my own good? Maybe he saw me struggling so hard in school. Maybe he thanked me for not giving the family troubles in school, being a diligent and indeendent student all these while. Maybe he thanked me for persevering till this very end, never giving up. Anyhow, I felt that it was a wrong word used, but maybe it is for these very reasons that Dad had used the word Thank You. I do not know.
Thinking about these, Dad mentioned that we should travel to the States. To utilise SIA's air tickets while still possible. Mum will not go. Mum hates long flights. She hates walking long distances. She hates the cleaning up when we return home. But then in the bathroom (in the bathroom is the most conducive place to contemplate life's dillemmas!!!), it struck me that the trip to US will still be possible! I could go with Dad. It will be our first trip together. I have been there, I could guide him along. I will lead the trip. I could spend time to bond with Dad. After.. 23 Years. I really could. And I want to. Sometime soon, end of year or next year. :) Sounds like a plan, and Im looking forward to it materialising. Just, wait a little more. :)

Yesterday, I think I've watched TOO MUCH KDRAMA.
Too much such that its norms and culture sorta infiltrates into my life, and confuses me.  In Korean culture, formalities and hierarchies are very important and respected upon. So, younger siblings/girls, call older brothers oppa, or younger boys call older brothers hyung.  Singaporeans do not call their older siblings as such.  Well, actually they do, but we do so in a westernised way. If you realized, since secondary school, I have addressed Randy as Randy Bro. We were close back then, especially in JC, where we helped each other SO MUCH in school. Those precious memories. :) and the way I causually address Bro Kueh, and when Im serious or feel troubled, I will go by Brother Kueh.  This Bro __nicname___ way of addressing. Its really equivalent to oppa. Just that oppa sounds really affectionate and cheesy in our society? But ultimately, its really the same. This thought revolved around my head before bed. haha But I have addressed them this way even before I was into K-pop.  It comes naturally, because I always feel like a little girl absorbing all their knowledge of Life, for issues that I am unable to cope with single-handedly. An extra pillar of support. Im glad I have these older friends in my life, to share with me alternative point of views. for, I'm an only child after all...

Oh, and Dad signed off the post-it with "Love, Dad". haha So Cute :p