Maybe I've indeed matured. Responsibilities are creeping up.
The reason why I desired to learn driving and to possess a car, to alleviate the squabbles whenever my extended family needs transportation and the unhappiness oftentimes... with a car, I can ferry them around, without anything in return, I will. Somehow everyone might be happier. This has been my wish of 2013. It just occurs that this need is s crucial I became determined to attain this goal.  Mum has also been mentioning serious stuffs that require my attention. Like how insurance works, housing plans, banking, wills... She would causually but seriously explain that the house, for example, would be transferred to myself and my husband's names.  When I have yet to be attached. I feel the pressure. I really do. Not of companionship but the pressure to build up a family so that mum and dad could look after kids while Im out at work. Very soon, in 1 year's time. I don't want them to be bored at home. I have no siblings, and its really difficult sometimes. Yes, I am worried that I yet to have a partner because Im growing old. I need to make plans. I am fine being alone, but wouldn't dad and mum wish otherwise?
I have this plan in mind. If I am all alone in the future, I might migrate. U.S.? Korea? I might take up a religion, voluntarily. Because I think that I might require that support and faith being all alone, to accompany me through my journey across the world. Will my friends go away, because they have their own families and I cant bother them for outings and chats ever so frequently. I will be all alone and I need a plan.
But right now, I still hold hope, and worries. I need to work hard, so that dad and mum and my family can take a step back. Its my responsibility.
Adult worries and a sudden determination.