From the Patriotic Me?

I finally caught ahboystomen. It was a significant movie, representative of Singapore and NS life...  I wonder how it would have been like if I had a brother who has served NS? I would be very proud of him. I think of my male friends when i watched the movie. Grown men ready to serve the country... I have no fears in SG's security, but it so vulnerable still. Probably, thats why I respect Uniformed personnel so much. :)  Maybe, just because our future lies in their hands that I admire them so much more so.   I feel that Jack Neo's movies arent as shallow as it seems. It requires general knowledge of Singaporean social issues to grasp the subtle jokes embedded in the scenes of the movie. Sets me thinking!
I have experienced alil of the jokes, vulgarities & humiliating acts in Girlguides. Although Uniformed Groups in AMKSS training was not even half as rigorous, I wonder why the Sirs and Ma'ams trained us that way. The little acts of humiliation - running to a tree, kiss it and come back - the vulgarities thrown at - bloody hell - the smashing of belongings and pumpings , comradeship - one for all all for one.
At that stage of life, us noob recruits were so intimidated we obliged to anything thrown at us. And that was how we have been trained. and Im glad i was trained that way. It has made me Stronger. and I cherished comradeship.
I often engage in a friendly debate with my friends over eating alone on campus. I do that, and I try to persuade them that people's opinions and stares are too fleeting it wouldnt make an impression in thoem who walked by. I dont know if it was the way I have been brought up as an only child to account for this independence?
I am special from the majority, not only in this instance of eating alone, in many instances of my mentality towards issues. I hope someone close would point out to be, if i have been weird, arrogant, selfish? I might never have known.

Will I continue to fit in?

Meanwhile, I have been going out alot, catching up with friends and holding onto friendships. It is so tedious. When you meet diff people who mean sth to you, in everyyyyyyy diff stage of life. Its so tedious to engage with Greeny Gang now, when we are all over the place... But, it was REALLY heartwarming, when I met Louis on A2 bus and we chatted! and I caught sight of Ron at central lib busstop. But he merely walked past me. It's okay! Cos I have seen them and Im glad some of us are still on this campus together. It was a heartwarming sight! :)

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