it is impractical to shed tears for a group of boys with no relation to you and who is so far away. but you have never witnessed the encouragement on Ukiss's Tumblr after their defeat in the music show, where all kissmes posted things like they have improved, we should be proud, and we are proud of xxx and xxx... the fans do not know each other, but yet they have successfully come together, to assist and support one another to vote, stream, listen, replay, just for their favorite group. It takes sacrifices and alot of effort, and it is because we appreciate Ukiss that we have come together as one to help the group climb towards the pinnacle. But its so disheartening it makes me wanna cry. Because I have put in hopes for this win but it failed to turn out so. Its not about wasting my time. My fear is that they would disband soon. When kpop and Ukiss have accompanied me throughout Uni Life, its like a brand new start with a brand new interest. When my techno/dance dwindled in Singapore since Sec 2, i took 2 years plus to get over it and find myself other passions to be involved in. This time, what if Ukiss disappears tomorrow? It not about the group separating, it about how I have built a bond with the kind of music that accompanies me through different emotions in daily life, how the songs successfully distract me and fill up gaps in my life and my source of escapance from school work and practical stuff. It seems like my world would come to a standstill, and I will cry.
I dont know how long i will be idolising though, this passing phase is bound to diminish one day.
And when i look back when Im much older, I want to recall the love of chasing after fangroups. Have you ever realised, it is chasing after dreams, together with the group. When Ukiss has failed so many times, they have never succeeded, it is the fans embracing defeat and bearing determination for the group to fair better the next time. But what if there is no next time?
I love the camaraderie of the fanclub. Im proud of being a Kissme but most importantly, I hope they will never be disheartened and stop, because there are people out there who appreciate them and have journeyed with them for 5 years.
People believe in them. 
When these people don't even believe that much in themselves.
My throat scrunches up so bad i feel suffocated. But i did not cry; my eyes well.
It means alot to me.