Where were you? I thought something might have happened to you, and then I questioned myself If i had committed any mistakes, and then i realised probably you might have discovered my blog by now. I asked the Stars, If you no longer cared anymore. Its that heartbreaking.
Its the last day of the year today. Its 12.55am. and I can cry. I looked at my phone and it read 31st December. and then all of a sudden an outpour of emptiness so strong, pverwhelmed me.
I did Stupid things. I switched off the lights, in case dad enters and sees my tears. but i couldnt see the keyboard and so i switched it back on. I realised I didnt wanna sleep too. Because the night is ending, I cant let it slip away so easily, that easily; not that it would change anything for the past year.
Today afternoon while painting and washing the pipes, i had Jif smeared all over my arms and legs and hair. And at that instant I behaved like a 2 year old, immersed in self-entertainment having fun with my hilarious jif-ed makeup. I felt happy... You call that pathetic, or insane-ness? I feel pathetic.
. I wanna cry but they dont come. When i think about our fragile our acquaintanceship on bed, they no longer come. Maybe Im now cold-hearted; Stone-hearted. Numbed of forgetting my genuine emotions..

Goodbye to you. But you know, I still came online. Random stuffs, you remember you said so before?? Why is that so?
Why do I feel so distraught this last day:(
I dont wanna return to school.
I reckon I might have a phobia of that LT....
// =X :( =(







ay.starsplash.
the power of Stars.
Maybe someone else has overtaken it.