makes me feel loved -

Dear Bloggy, its my birthday celebration today! it was too early, and a tad disorganised, but nevertheless, my party! haha :) Was it a day for me to be 'queen'? haha!
Havent heard my own birthday song in ages... I remember in sec 4 when carline and kianlam came to my playground with a slice of cake, is that considered? But that month mum and I had been in a cold war, sweet 16 aint sweet, ... bad memories *throw away*!!
And i wasnt gonna cry at all alright!! Just that this morning, everything just occurred so quickly like in a Flash.. so peculiar a morning - I had told a teeny white lie at hm, then when i arrived, Shahidah and her bear with their Oh-So-Convincingly-Suspicious expressions!!!! and the next moment I was sitting on my chair in my starry wonderland singing a birthday song to myself... LOL... I didnt have time to comprehend anything, ... A-Ha! and seriously, I hadnt expected it to be today...
I'm sorry I appeared a lil sad; for in actual fact, I really didnt know how I was to react! :) and everything seems jumbled, so I gotto word it down to straighten my thoughts.
Sincerely, Thank You very much Sasquatch Gang for all the effort. The Starry Desk, & the Individual notes meant everything, I might have asked for, if I could choose =)
Sitting at a distance admiring my desk, the starry desk resembles somewhere among the galaxy, so child-like yeah, kiddy, but filled with innocence and freedom - in its freestyle forms and sizes of paper cuttings. I feel different sitting there, and it makes my day, as simple as that. I wished the stars can be Planted there forever, for when i see their scatterings, I feel so happy, pure simple happiness, and I call it Love.
Vong wrote "May the stars at your area represent shooting stars (imagine) and you'll have infinite wishes to last the rest of your life!"
It meant alot. =) and i had thought it once that way too......

The notes were truthfully written. They spelled out who I am, and what I might have been. I'm surprised my colleagues learned about me within a mere 3 months, cause in JC, no one ever joked with me this way, or thought me this way like you all had. You wouldnt imagine. How immersion in work can make people oblivious, and heartless. and its true, I aint this cheerful bubbly girl at all in JC. Devi-L: "your presence in itself makes people happy." Have I? I hope I have, subconsciously. But I wished you guys to be happy too :) You guys make me sound so great and precious.

I love my fairytale wonderland - at my desk.
I love how the big cake makes me feel so wealthy with possession.
The notes that makes me realise;
and I know that no matter how all of you tease me, you care and makes me special:)

I'm deeply grateful=)

Cranes will bring you all hope to share.
It'll give strength, whereever you go, dear friends =)

I guess the little disappointment in TODAY, would be reading edison aka nicholas's note.... Lol... even if he'd been afraid of me due to the scandals of me and him, come on; you could have written at least a HappyBday right?? haha!!

Finally I've changed my phone! It was Dad's phone, using it in remorse, since the day I lost my own birthday phone 1 year ago, gift from mum and dad... Yearned for one I have a true sense of belonging and ownership to. Rightfully mine.
No classy, funky phone, just a humble one to call mine! Sony Ericson W705, and I named it: Red Wee~~~...



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