Monday blues.
this time like I've fallen into something, and just when I've begun to fall, its time to retreat.
Go back,
Stop it,
Accept that nothing has happened. At all.
and you call it.. "kinda late". yeah, kind of late becoming friends only now, worth - these few days, that could be counted with my sole left hand.
Today
I had the urge to run from my first day at UOB plaza office.
Then i headed to Bishan recruit express for Aurina.
Submission of timesheet.
I just didnt want to leave. Walking to the mrt with her was so pleasant!
Do you have a friend like that? its goddess auri. =)
I was depressed today, I dont deny. I feel like crying... oh my, why i am so emo.
maybe.
In that office, i cannot bear to let go of Greeny Gang commaraderie.
I cannot imagine myself enclosed in the claustrophobic office while they are out there,
somewhere in the outside world, basking in the sun.
I cannot forget how greeny peeps helped one another at the restaurant job.
We were like... there to support each other through the toughness...
that's what friends are for. 5 Greeny people:)
ANNAYEO CHERLTAN YANGGUANYI JIAJIN & WEILUN.
that we ahve each other backing us up, all along.
Entertaining me too! haha.. Such that i am never lonely.

People at the esplanade restaurant
rudely labelled my dear friend, called me a woodblock=(
Commented on my swollen eyebags. WELL, i was born with it. 18 years with it, what's your problem?. I tried being polite and smiled it off.
If it didnt bother my dear friends,
What say you?

And i realised, that all my male friends will soon be far away on an island doing army. They make up half of my closest friends :(
What if, I even fail to recognise them along the streets :( boo.

This office job made me realise that i wanna serve in the services industry. see watsons, and my waitress job, I've indeed learnt much.
At least i had been happy. Going to work had been a breeze;
the route to esplanade was always a leisurely one,
unlike dreamwalking thongs of crowd chionging up the escalators at Raffles Place -
I dont like it.



No more dreaming AY. no more imaginations.
Distant friends, just fine. As you call it.
Just that its kinda late.
Makes it so difficult .. for this thousand butterflies fluttering feeling in my heart to just vapourise, overnight.

Fungi - longlost mingwei called up for a chat today! It was Fun XD
On the bus home
I scribbled some notes in my journal.
This idiotic young man turned and stared at the scribblings.
I threw my pen into my bag.

You know, the busstop across my house where every morning we go to school from-
We meet being complete strangers.
Now that its Come, and Gone
I can only think u in the morn.

I'll speak every trivial thing
To loosen this roller-coaster emotion.

=ay