-wanderlust-

i want to declare:

"I JUST LOVE HANGING OUT WITH YOU GUYS!!!!!!"

LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT!!!

its just that we all play together because that's how close we have been!

Its one of the most successful barbeques i have ever attended!!! and i planned it!!!! yeah!!!! no, i'm not claiming all the credits to myself,

i wanna thank AURI!!!!!! for bringing the heavy disc player hoping to transform the bbq arena into a mini open-air Club... and for the handy pair of thongs!!!

pumpkin for collecting money for me!!! :)

i'm grateful to the BOYS for going grocery shopping with us, helping us to carry!:)

Peiqi, Elaine, Cheryl Low for coming early to help me :)

lilan for booking the pit and her dad's generosity which i never got to thank in person today...

and for the presence of ALL!!!!!! :)

You know

we are a really impromptu and cool bunch of people, i'm not making sweeping statements, its like one person (Auri!) comes up with one idea (giftexchange), and we get all so excited and go along with it... and we are such an efficient bunch of people... when messages are passed, it spreads from one end of the 'class' to the other like ZOOMMMM!!! and we suggest playing games together, and all of us, boys and girls, sit in a circle playing 'PIG!!!!' haha!!!! and i emphasize impromptu because we can make decisions on the go... like just plan outings immediately and the next day we all really show up.

and i'm honoured to have such GREENY friends to stay with.

i felt so childish running, hopping and calling here and there today. but because i was really immersed in this family-like gathering with them =)

Some girls didnt want to play... they prefered to chat and relax, and i'm fine with that, just that the more the merrier... While some others have grown so stranger to me... just a minority... that in my midst of laughter and happiness, I have become oblivious to them... and i began to doubt them...

then there was gift exchange!!! Guanyi was in-charge, and i bickered with him over the 'revealing of who the present was given by'. I felt so powerless, so i got lilan, cheryl low and elaine to help argue our stand... that not knowing who the 'giver' is will create this secretive, mysterious and exciting atmosphere!

Probably my unrelenting arguments were the cause of my embarrassment for the night... during the lucky draw, i got back my own present :(

do you know how sad i was :(...

because i had long awaited this excitement and mysterious moment this christmas, in the i received my own present... and i got to exchange it with someone else [that person will know its from me already:( ]. as though my dream was literally smashed. I was just so sad that it happened to me. I was to perform a forfeit and made to sing!!! OMG!!!! its was the most embarrassing moment this holiday. i sang like a toad... because i was so disappointed with myself, i think yilin danced 10 times better than my singing. :(

there comes the dog!!!

its was from steven, randy bro's council friend.

i appeared quite unhappy with the soft toy as i was trying to calm my nerves from singing the chorus of Womanizer...

let me talk about the dog.

It gradually seems lovelier by the seconds. I have never held a soft toy for decades. Yes, since like p1,2 when my large bunny and dolls were given and thrown away, mum has never let me play with anymore 'dust-accumulating' soft toys... and its really nice to hold on to one now...:) thsi innocent dogs can make me feel better... :)

Probably, knowing who the 'giver' is isnt that bad anymore... because you will learn to be grateful to that one person. Instead of taking things for granted, you begin by being grateful to the one 'giver'. This dog, from a stranger, and i'm grateful for it. :) THANK YOU!
I LOVE THE DOG!!!! :) it shall go with me on my bed!

SORRY randy bro for not singing that song i said i would sing anymore...
i feel so guity for breaking that promise. and i began emoing after ice-cream...
someone else also seemed emo... ? but that kinda face that seems to be keeping alot of thoughts within oneself, makes me feel uneasy.
then i reflected on how happy this occasion is, i didnt want it to stop and when will be the next time i see all these faces in such glee again. it seems so far away. and on the bus ride home, guanyi repented about his mistake in dwiddling this 1 year away... and it makes me so sad.

but, they will be going to Sentosa on 7th January!!! Auri, peiqi, surong, want to go???? I WANT!!!! i want to go with them, please go along??? :)
Yeah! and i will be collecting my pay on the 4th with Guanyi and Louis! =)