Some words are forbidden to be said. if these taboo words are said, those worse-off than me would throw stones. They would criticise behind my back.
But.
This is my blog.
Sometimes i thought my blog would be blocked, only Invited eyes can read it... those people who know who i am.
Sometimes i really Only want greeny eyes to see them. Because they will know what's wrong with me.

when we called cheryl low over. she merely said afew words and left. i wondered why she was that lil' bit hostile today.
maybe. Its for the same reason.

I left school together with Goddess Auri.
you know why she's called goddess?
she is my goddess.
she asked what my aim/expectation had been.
i replied - "nothing".
and her next response was " i know this feeling... "
and that, was the sole comfort
i kept.
i believd her. i know she understands.
when i couldnt even explain my inexplicable emo upon seeing my grades.
when i gave up trying to explain to guanyi why i was sad.

Auri and i walked along a secluded long path to the mrt station.
it was safe.
i smiled, an expression i need not mask to hide from this goddess
maybe she doesnt know how much it meant.
but i am utterly grateful she was there.
when i tried so hard to escape from the classroom.to just look away from everyone else.
without them throwing pebbles at me despite me scoring better than them.
and randy bro's message.
their gifts no amount of thankyous can repay.
Do i have the right to be sad?


i wondered about fleeting happiness.

mum knows that i am sad. for i was very quiet, and i havent hid at my desktop writing away since awhile now
so i'm gonna hide this book
lest she picks it up
and peep.

ay.starsplash.x