I just wanna blog this before school starts.
i know you wouldnt understand, but i'm feeling that dread, impending fear approaching. I'm risky. I'm telling you that. You shun me away, because you aint me.
I have been thinking alot about L. I desire to know how she is, why has she been so quiet, i'm frightened. This silence suffocates me, influences me. Accentuates my fear.

It was on this tagboard, i saw what She said.
i have told aurina, goddess auri, that if the entire xxxx turned up at the... chalet, how angry would i be, I would cry, i would curse them. This thought swept past my mind on several occasions, because i saw it. Auri assured me 'wont la'. My plan is tweaking. I'm worried.
No, i cant let them destroy it, And i will not, You cannot! I was grateful, Yet. Undeniably, there's my shield against them.

This, is the best weekend since so long =))
As though a fairytale, i simply lazed on the sofa, reading, listening to my music, lying on my bed, dreaming, singing by the window after dinner... Some Things i havent done with such a cleared mind since... i dont know when.
Reading is a... luxury? Indulgence? this point in time.. Used to be my hobby every holiday, i have lost it since....?
This fairytale weekend, i let my mind at ease, doing nothing.
I'm happy. =))
Its a fairytale weekend.
Let me cherish it, for the next time, is so clouded, i cant picture it at all.
I felt peace.
And the wind loved me.

love, ay//.

somehow this song * puts myself really at ease, like flowing water, all the worries washed away. this song makes me think. of somebody..
*Why by Secondhand Serenade: why did you do this to me? rings in my head!
i wished we talked.like before.
i wished we talked like before.
its just a story, =)
a fairytale.
haha.

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