Mum told me to view things positively, to accept things with an open heart. That is to attend RC day camp at Ngee Ann Poly with an open heart.
Well, yes i have learnt and understood what RCHN is about.
But i dont see the point of so many ice breakers for half a day without me learning nothing else other than bonding. Yea. that's not the main aim of the camp.
Anyway, out of the 8 members in My group 1, only 2 including me are 17 year olds. The rest were all Uni students. And out of these EIGHT, only 2, including me are true blue Singaporeans.
and.

You know what they said of singapore?
They said singapore is SMALL.
i didnt hear properly and i asked - ' Singapore what-?'
and this SMU student repeated Singapore is SMALL.
followed by the chorus of the NTU maylaysian who repeated - 'Yeah, Singapore is Small!'
and this 17 year old IJC Indian scholar - 'Yes, Singapore is small'.
you know what i replied?
BUT SINGAPORE IS SAFE. I FEEL SAFE AND SECURE HERE.
yes, without natural disasters and political turmoil, so my friends and family are safe, i have them by my side everyday, need not worry about what might be stripped from me the next moment. No constant worries.
this Indian Scholar from IJC also told me - 'SINGAPORE IS BORING'.
SINGAPORE IS NOT BORING.
SINGAPORE IS NOT BORING WHEN I HAVE SO MANY BEAUTIFUL PLACES I SO WANNA GO To BUT NOT THIS POINT IN TIME. LIKE THE ESPLANADE, SUNTEC CITY, ORCHARD ROAD, EAST COAST PARK, THE SINGAPORE FLYER, LANTERN FESTIVAL! CHANGI AIRPORT... SENTOSA... FAR FAR AWAY.

I asked her where she intended to go after completing A levels.
Her reply was ' I WANT TO TRY UNIVERSITY in U.S, BUT IF I CANT ENTER, I WILL TRY FOR NUS'.
Yes, sadly saying, Singapore who nurtured her, who gave them the prestigious certificates of Graduation, she takes Singapore AS A SECOND CHOICE ...
If Singapore is indeed too BORING for you, why didnt you leave?
Why do we have to study harder than them, mug harder than them, just to surpass them, to be 'as worthy' as them to enter the same Universities?

I'm distraught, by these who are unappreciative of what they have here.

Today monsy told me she read the farewell letter i wrote to her on 12.10.07, and the black birthday notebook i have designed specially for her.
and just coincidentally on my bed several days ago, i thought of going through all my Farewell assembly stuffs and letters, but i didnt, for i was afraid my emo would revive and hinder my study mode...
and just the same day, i dreamt of Monsy and others, and i woke up reminding myself - i miss surong.
I'm mystiqued by the lingering strains of telepathy that might still exist, that we both have thought of the same thing to do (reading farewell notes) during thsi holiday.
and the days before farewell assembly on 12.10.07.
we dreamt that we gave each other a farewell hug.
at different locations.

Telepathy.
Its real.

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I'm holding onto that telepathy though it might be straining.
and i am proud to be a Singaporean.