today there was a sudden fire alarm while i was engrossed in Method Of difference after school!!! they purposely planned a chaotic time to carry out the drill!
and today took class photo... didnt condition my hair, i'm not gonna order the photos...
and today guanyi told me his mum has gone back to china and he's gonna hold a party this saturday!!!! so naughty!!!!! cheat his mum!!!! bbq! campfire burning! haha... ...

I'm looking forward to mum going hilton hotel with me this sat for a ceremony.
i think missing her presence makes me enter depression soon. Again?!!!

Red cross has been haunting me... i dont mind. i just want YOU to leave me alone so that i can study and get my studies done. its as simple as that. i was so stressed over stupid blood donation drive yetserday...
i didnt mind if you relinquish my position as president. Its just a name... i dont know how i have gotten it... the seniors might have been disillusioned by me during the interview... i dont know, i just know surong was encouraging me on, having the untold faith for me in her adamant voice, and my Girl Guides - UG spirit taught me to only mention the highest post, to fight for what i can achieve... maybe i am too much a nut! doing exactly what i have been taught without contemplating bout the feasibilities...
i felt like a mutant yesterday. i controlled the anguish tears on the bus ride home, and while eating i mustered my courage with a mouthful of noodles to tell mum the complications for RC... she didnt see the tear, nor hear the quivering voice of a weakling. for once, i wished my mum could see it and bother.
i feel like a mummy's girl.
but i was cracking at the edge. i Wanted to fall.

Merry thoughts at school - Exciting sakura meal on 08/08/2008 discussion with goddess auri, and the true blue heartfelt talks with peiling in class, were unable to overpower the emotional turmoil last evening.
everything just went ba ba boom.
when the afternoon i had spent lazing in the gentle drizzle outside LT 4 so fairytale like, juxtaposed aginst this Blackish nightmare ( see the POWER of BLACK?)
reflects just 1 thing of my incompetence...
i miss a goddess's leading and teaching... =(
childish girl.
i miss mrs chung. I do not respect a teacher who's slack, neither will she ever Gain my respect. I am disappointed. i have given up.
With her, with this CCA.
I'd be better off helping teh community.
Its too late to cry over spilt milk, Anna yeo.
unless she kicks me out... not till i accomplish my nyaa Gold.
evil?

and i thought crying it all out last night and a tight sleep will patch everything in order...
sleep early Pufferfish!
you have phototaking tmr you cannot cry anymore.
i thought a tight sleep and i'd reawake a tad stronger.
Yes. But the scaffolding still came crashing with a touch.



If writing and writing can resurrect my presence
i will replenish the ink with droplets.
This is where,
My home sweet Home.
Four walls keep me protected-

From the pelter... Of Humankind.


ay.starsplash.
i love HOME.