it was not perfect, neither was it a flop, but she overcame - a stage phobia, and she did not cringe once at the thousand eyes peering at her... amidst the muffled laughters she turned a deaf ear. For she was prepared. To overcome this obstacle, this Feat. How many timid people really made it up there in their lifetimes? She wasnt afraid of the crowd, but... her own voice. How ironic.
You didnt hear it wrong. The quivering voice. Because she has never intended to mimic a 5 year old kid. Neither did she want to adorn that actcute voice. The consequence? She sounded like a monotonous nightingale... no, a robot. it lacked emotion and confidence.
But she did it, and survived the week. Every morning it seemed so tough, a dread to awake.
On the first day, she dreamt she took the wrong bus and that she had alighted at her self pathed road to her primary school. Next day, she dreamt she lost her phone in the school canteen. The third day she forgot to report to the school office early in the morning... the fourth day, she finally dreamt of her classmates from 0802 for once in her life of NYJC.
She took comments in stride and heeded advices =) thank you dear friends who Believed in her. Thank goodness the teacher in charge was so fatherly and kind and never once instructed her on mistakes. He gave her a kinder bueno chocolate today for being top 5 for geog in the cohort! =) He has become her favourite teacher! XD
and I DID IT.
and i pulled through Blood donation drive. the first event i have ever taken charge of ever since, without teachers' guidance. Yea. i'm proud of it. Because we refuted them aggressively against a Lame idea. and that we indeed tried our best. and we broke the previous record by 3! =) 118 units of blood. I really wanna acknowlege the members' efforts and the donors who were willing to make a difference in others' lives. Thank you for donating. =)
MAMBO visited my blog. I wonder how my dear friend is doing. Havent seen her for 7 months, for what seemed like EONS... mambo is still mambo. Am i still the same? Havent talked to surong for several weeks for what seemed like years. How is my dear friend coping in school? my Heroine dragongirl. (dragon boat)
i miss ANG MO KIO HUB so much. No, not the shopping centre. The usual meeting place greenies gather every morning without fail. Though its only been a week since i gotto make announcements every morn. I feel i have missed out so much, far too much it makes me miss so badly.
And i declared i would be a HAPPIER person next week.
I already am. =)
it will come back very very soon.
but if only everything was so simple...
cheryl low gave me a hug in the canteen when i chanced upon her and called out her name today. what's wrong cheryl? it might have given me hope, it might have worried me... but all i can rememeber is how i almost teared, when you mouthed to me - 'are you okay?' in the same canteen several several days ago... when you saw my troubled face.
and i hear amos chia and khee yau shuting 'GO ANNA!' when they set up the microphone for morning assembly... (they are from ava). Its helped. =)
no more procrastination. i 'm gonna clear backlog this weekend. i can settle down now.
AY.STARSPLASH.12.10.07 revive this resurrection
we are one.
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