so many things occurred in school today.
i laid foot into NY's amk hub, and cheryl exclaimed
" anna!!! we should have worn our green uniforms today..."
me: "huh, green uniform?!!!!"
foolish me.
it was be yourself day today.
if i werent this ignorant, i wouldnt forget friday, today, was be yourself day. i wouldnt have missed this chance to wear my beloved green uniform again.
even if someone had reminded me late last night, i wouldnt hesitate to pick up the phone to dial the familiar numbers, to remind ALL of them, to wear the AMKSIAN uniform.
but
its gone.
we'll have to wait till... next year?
i was so sad i teared.
but cheryl low and monsy were the ones beside me who made sure it didnt fall.

strangers saw right through.
not the way they decipher truth, from lies...

then i met huiru after school.
we sat at the grandstand and watched our heroine monsy run and run and run.
she confided in me that she cried twice. because we could attend Overseas Learning Expedition chiang rai (OSLE), but she could not. how much she desires to go. how i wished she could attend with me, for an amksian to stand beside me when the going gets tough.
Yet, we wont get what we want. how i wanna hug her, to tell her not to worry. the ironic thing is that the dao-ish me only got to know her this year, to talk to her-heartfelt. My new friend.

i sat outside the libary with guanyi for 2 hours after school. i realised i was so worried for him when i heard from cheryl low that he got into trouble with the school. i realised i care alot for my friends. i hope he wouldnt feel so disappointed. Even though teachers say that they cant trust you anymore, we got to pick up the pieces and move on.
for they are not the only shadows that appear in our lives..

at OSLE meeting, i made new friends and learnt magic. its a new skill. XD
i'm gonna flaunt it on monday morning!

tomorrow cca!!!! to see the innocent and cheerful kids one last time before my schdule ends. =( i will miss them. how a hangman game can them all exhilarated and looking forward to lessons. how they play with me. how the lil' girl comes to me... i realised i do like kids. maybe i'd go be a primary school teacher... =) i cant help but smile at their innocent fearful silence and chubbyness! ha.

ay.starsplash.studystudy!
i'm gonna fail math test.