because i'm a noob
just a childish noob...


Daddy held my hand:

So, the place with streets lined with palm trees was
causeway point.
i felt so big, yet so small,
so old, yet so young
i looked down
the scene seemed to manouvre
to fit into the window of my eyes.
How long since daddy last held my hnad?
No, i didnt let him do so.
He held it so tightly pulling me across the roads...
Today i broke my laws
thrice
i shouldnt have stood on the right side
but i gave myself a lame excuse that
i have to overcome
so i rested my arm on the escalator handrail
and obstructed the right lane.
an unforgivable action commited by a girl guide.
i rushed to causeway point and bypassed a student selling flag.
i rejected the boy saying no.
but luckily at causeway i saw similar students and i walked up
to donate a coin.
in the end.
causewaypt aint that nice afterall.
i thought i missed that place terribly 2 3 years ago...
but i will still go there with mum and aunt or dad again...
i'm so glad i have a pen and foolscap paper today=)
then i could write and write so i wouldnt suffocate!
when i'm stressed i just eat and eat...
you dont know how much i ate and drank today!
gosh!
feel so guilty.
but if eating can just erase all the emoness and wrongdoings, i shall eat and eat.
i was so full i closed my eye but i couldnt sleep...
i wont escape anymore.
i cannot afford to anymore
because i saw how
i am being manipulated.
by what my devilish mind saw.

i feel so big yet so small
in my own world.
lets just be friends
then i can go back to studying after emoing.
haha.
then i wouldnt have to hide
this dark secret
to complement my dark dark emo.
which no one will ever decipher.
because i have a protective shield
(louisa, its still there=( )
i realised i wouldnt come off for your jagged key.
i will do mum proud!!! =)
i'm such a childish girl.
i think all of you saw it today...
so big bro and friends and yir husband, guide me along, alright.

auri peiqi huiru cheryl Low, and i went to J8 for lunch together after sports.
AMKSIAN FRIENDS ARE THE BEST.
no one will ever replace.
where we feel so open and carefree and TRUE to each other.
where real smiles and laughters are born.
THANK YOU GUANYI FOR MAKING ME SMILE THIS NIGHT on msn.
REALLY.=)
thank you yir husband! (haha!)
and randy bro for always listening to me.
louisa whose enthusiasm i heard over the phone,
fungi who is so lame...
and auri and peiqi and cheryl low and huiru who gave me confidence and identity...

whenever there's a chance, i would just bid goodbye to CT 0802 and run away with amksians...
GREENIES... FOREVER-AND-A-DAY.
let it not fade.
the green uniform wouldnt fade
if we hold on tight.

ay.starsplash.I AM A GREENIE AMKSIAN