dear journal,
today is orientation 2 and it was dead boring!!! new friends can never beat old ones... and my new good friend mingwei is gonna appeal to ajc... i know he will enetr, making us all so sad. =( i wished not. because we have all been here since PAE, i wished we were all together...
just felt so downcasted teh entire day, yet i still have to put up a psedo hyper front - when ma'am jocelyn asked why u looked so glum... why as an acl, i was not hyper...
then i went to her and explained that - i was not teh acl. i'm a PL. dont say i look like her anymore... sickening.

people say i look like so many other people. am i losing my own identity? taht people might not know who i am anymore...

i regret terribly not being an OGL. for the worse mistake in NYJC that i ahve ever committed to myself... i see my friends palying so carefree as big bosses and sisters... i'm stabbed with envy. where i cant be as high a sthem because ppl around me arent so... =(
i have learnt never to go with the flow...
i will be strong and independent after this incident. i'm gonna register for the environmental course on my own.
i wont wait for others anymore.

sch starts tmr, we'll all be so busy... that every worthless stray thought will just burst, as a bubble does as it rises into the sky....

my angel is an bengish, no la, just that kind act cool type. yeah. quite scary.yet mysterious things tug at me, but they always turn out the other way as time goes by... i accept it in my stride.toblerone was sweet. that i will eventually treat someone like that as my big brother, just like randy bro - but radny bro far surpasses it... i wished that the angel-mortal game would continue... that angels and mortals continue caring for each other like INVISIBLE FRIENDS. i wonder what many drafts might mean to make sure they are perfect for... another...invisibility is a blinds all ills and uglyness one might percieve...

today i was disappointedi thought there wouldnt be a reply but there was.i regretted today.i got to hide myself from a stranger from now on...

ay.starsplashhow did i feel todayterrible.and my ankle made me feel like a mutant....