you know the feeling,
when you are so tired,
you want to be in your own world,
and that no one will call you or sms you stupid things,
okay, not stupid, but...
i-just-dont-want-to-talk-to-you
kind of feeling.
and so i didnt even write any HAPPY or STRUGGLING issues
about my new life without watsons but
nayang junior college in my journal,
and so i am too tired to spell out here.
so what if its here?
how many eyes do see it?
why do they have to know.
i need not tell you if i'm HAPPY or SAD.
so it shall be in black and white.
i shall leave things white form now on.
till my life is stabilised.
that day i emoed on the bus to sch1!
oh god!

got to sms wenhui.
and she said she was tempted to sms me at sch...
and receiving random smses form yihling.
i felt so sweet.
my watsons friends for just a month but we seem like old friends.
kassim said a friend at school and at work is totally different.
































life at nyjc
is so free and relaxed and wild.
i just think my wild thoughts will return.
i am so afraid.
got to control myself.
wished i was numbed.
yet the devil is looking.
yet for another victim.
i am evil and selfish.
and crazy.

devil. bad devil. killing my goodwill.

ay.starsplash.dont fall.

i have already
pulled through 3 days.