INFATUATION.
LIKE WHAT I HAVE ONCE SAID BEFORE, NORMAL TEC STUDENTS HAVE MORE EQ THAN US NERDS. AND THEY ARE BETTER TRUER FRIENDS, THOUGH I FEEL THEM STAYING A TAD AWAY FROM US EXPRESS KIDS, BUT I REALLY DONT MIND THEM. THEY ARE NICE PEOPLE, AND THEY HELPED MY CHINESE IMPROVE! HAHA... AND I JUST ANSWER THEM IN CHINESE !!! I GUESS IT SOUNDS FINE, BECAUSE I DONT CARE HOW THEY MIGHT LAUGH (WHICH THEY DIDNT), UNLIKE IN SCHOOL.
YES, MY CHINESE DID IMPROVE.
AND I LOVE MY JOB TO BITS.
Brendon, the stall manager told me several days ago that he might teach me cashiering, at first i was confused and reluctant because cashiers have to payup for any discrepancies in the money at the end of the day, and then he said -
(in chinese) among the 3 of you (3 giftwrappers), i chose you. i think only you can deal with the customers...
then i asked - wei shen me xuan wo? yin wei wo zui xiong...?
then he answered - not firece, because i see you can deal with teh customers and not pa pa zhe yang.
and so i am recognised, made me love my job even more.
because i ahve the ability, and i was so exasperated and excited the following days because I'M GONNA LEARN SOMETHING NEW!!!!!!!
i feel i'm an active learner, i wish to learn new things, improve myself, polish my skills, just like in school. but i hate studying.
i want to learn cashiering from my friends because its the honour and chance of a lifetime.

dave visited me yesterday, and i was the only girl (other than the aunties) working till 10 pm last night. haha.. but the nice cashiers played with me, because brendon wasnt there, haha, so we anyhow wrapped presents and talked and patrolled the stall.
i wasnt so bored after all.
I HAVE JUST FALLEN DEEPER.

i quarrelled with mum recently, havent talked for 2 days already. it all began with lies.
lies here, lies there, integrity and stuff. whatever.
but i do feel miserable, but luckily i went out the entire day yesterday, to the dentist, ALONE, to work, had fun with MY FRIENDS...
and today i'm off, didnt talk to anyone, but... i want to return to work tomorrow!
i have counted, its mid december, 21 more days left to play with my new friends who shall soon become acquaintances.
i am feeling sad already.
and meanwhile i have to settle down with mum first. but
LET MY INFATUATION CARRY ME FURTHER.
please?

ay.starsplash.
sometimes, everytime, i just want to tell YOU so.
tell you how i feel.
what if you ignore me for the rest of the period working at watsons?
for that, i cannot risk.