i almost cried out.
in pain.
i almost dug for the phone in my bag to call daddy to come to the busstop.
to support me across the bridge back home.
i slumped onto the first level of the steps of the bridge
and rubbed and rubbed and rubbed.

and so, i changed the position of my bag to the LEFT side!!! for once because i dont want my right shoulder to be lopsided!!!! and i crossed the overhead bridge dreaming, with my mp3 on.
and you know what i thought of? -
i thought of home,high on top of the world on the bridge i thought - if i were gone, if i never came across here again... i have to cherish.........
and so,
down, down, the steps,
then, my left feet got suspended, left, right, ground, straight, left!!!!!
and it got CONTORTED!!!!!!
my left feet missed a step and so stayed in mid air while my right took off to land... so... yup.
the very few steps out of house to work and i almost cried!!!!
wanted to return home to rest,
but i Cannot take mc, i cannot be a baby, i cannot cry in front of them all, i cannot be a weakling.
so i trudged to work.
all because i changed the position of my bag, and thought of home, whereby i havent talked to mum for 2 weeks.
but... ... ... ... so....

i dont know how come my secrets always get leaked out.
maybe the promoters read my emo notes which i have penned whenever i am lonely and sad at the red gift wrap table at watsons and told the whole world including henry (supervisor), and ron(the malay cahsier).....
but... how is it possible!!!!!!! because i remember taking home every piece, so far, only 3 pieces that i have ever written.
how could they have read it!!!!
how could they know about me? how did i let STRANGERS enter my mind's eye?
but maybe i myself never kept my own secrets and thoughts and showed it all over my face....
just like today i sprained my leg and had a black face when i went to work, but i recovered soon after...
but ron knows.
that ahbeng knew. one of them.
but anyway.


jin tian yao qu na li chi?
and then i ignored....
during lunch time, my fellow giftwrappers told me that they were waiting for me to lunch.
and then i said - huh? did i even agree?
and they saw me there but they went off.....
and i knew it took courage to ask an encrusted me.
encrusted with complications and emoness and my freaky mind.
You will never know what i am thinking. how do you expect me to explain it to you? except i gave you a 'sorry eh!', in the office where you always ate your lonely meal.
and emil came back to work today.then i said hello!!!!
and he turned a shag face, with a forceful Hi!
i know, we the morning shift knew that his grandfather has passed away, boss gave him 3 days off, but he returned today. and he asked if i worked morning yesterday, because he knew we would find him missing. so i just said yup! and didnt ask anything else.

tell me what does observing ONE minute of silence mean?
a form of respect? why only for special people like late prime ministers?

anyway,
haha!!! henry finally knew my name!!!!!!!!
previously he would say... example, wenhui. deng ni de peng you (that's me!!!) zuo hao... blah blah... haha....
i'm called ni de peng you!!!!
and yesterday i got scolded from peggy auntie for once for being so messy.. around the gift wrap area... but i'm messy i will pack ma!!!! haha
MONSY VISITED ME YESTERDAY! and got scolded for diverting my attention form wrapping when she came to talk to me! haha... still as unglam in her Language as ever.....all the things she got back form bangkok are WEIRD!!!!!
Weird stuffs for weirdos. you know, the keychains and bears she bought all got BLACK FACE one lor!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.... her favourite!
XD

i guess i will never learn cashiering... but nevermind, i'm happy, that's enough.
because of what you did, overtime, i threw away that note plus candy cane intended to send to you. NO MORE!!!!!
and dont tell me to do whatever things!!! i dont need to know!!!!!

GODDESS AURI VISITED ME TODAY!!!! haha
she bought a dog chain for ALEX! but the cardboard was in a torn condition so she put it back. really!!!! the cardboard read - DOG CHAIN!!!!! hahahahaha XDXDXD..... yea!!!! auri!!!

okay, i am getting high again...
though my feet is gonna be big as a balloon tomorrow and i will crawl to work like a snail, i plan to wake at 7 am and get ready by 8.15am to leave house by 8.30 instead of my normal 8.45am, to crawl to work and inch up the steps......
I CAN DO IT!!!!!!
BUN CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha....

okay, so i lost the chance today, but people will say, like they are already saying now...
and my fellow giftwrappers thinks the look is yucks so,.

ay.starsplash.
I-LOVE-MY-JOB-TO-BITS-PIECES-FRAGMENTS-AND-EVERYTHING-SMALL.
Bun.