Today, I did a good deed today!!! hahaha!! =) Susan, Xinhui and I volunteered for Singapore Red Cross as helpers for the tsunami victims of Japan. We were all previous RC members, and I guess the spirit of volunteerism is still within us (which I am so proud of), because I merely emailed Susan, and randomly msged xinhui if they wanted to participate on a saturday, and all of them enthusiastically agreed!!!! I am so glad Im still in contact with such a cool bunch of friends who would happily engage in such activities me!

We were split up, I was involved in admin work - chopping and recording of every number of each cheque... so mundane and manpower consuming... I wondered if this would make a difference to those in Japan after all or am I simply lightening the admin staff's workload so he can return home early???? BUT I consoled myself, (to see this in a positive light! hahaha) that by lightening their workload, they can devote more time to the donation operations to be delivered to Japan! :)

Im contented being a small minuscule part of this global effort! =) and Im really happy!! =)

I feel that because I love volunteerism, much more than planting of trees on campus:( , despite how long since my friends and I have left JC RC, we are still willing to return to that small disorganized building of 'confused' personnels....... DO WHAT YOU BELIEVE IN, AY! =) =)

Yesterdayafter Social Work module lecture, I was enlightened. I realised finally, why there was this inexplainable hesitation with my motivations for SW - Social Work lectures make my life so solemn :(

I cannot major in social work, because every small lil thing I witness in society might revolve round and round my head. SW lectures introduce us to the issues of society, which makes me look at society unbiasedly, however, this almost seems to evoke a negativity in Every single issues I may have observed, and it really renders my life so much more depressing... :(

makes me an emo person. and I tear too easily. During stories in class, my nose never fails to sour and the tears seep into my eyes, but no, I dont cry.

I respect the SW profession,

and I learnt that my zest for volunteerism does not intersect with the social work arena.

So, I shall continue with my simple interest then! :):)

We live in Life's simple pleasures!!

and oh, WHO SAYS SINGAPOREANS ARE UNEMPATHETIC?????? WHO SAYS SO!!!

from the amount of donations collated by by RC which I handled, there was a lady who donated $20,000!!! I was like OMG!! thats not even my 20 years' worth of savings!!!!!! But I trully respect everyone who donated, to make a small difference no matter how small! :)

and people still walked in to donate volunteerily!!!!!! SINGAPOREANS ARE COMPASSIONATE! Im proud to be a Singaporean! Since my 4 years of training in GirlGuides which has nurtured my patriotism, I am so much more proud of Singaporeans today, coupled with local talents like my idol JJLINJUNJIE! ha-ha-ha.....

:) ay.starsplash.

POWER of the Subconscious

the POWER of dreams.

Do you feel it?

Dreams mean a lot to me.

I live in another world.

I know that it aint real,

But I dont know that Im dreaming in my dreams.

But some scenes are so sweet;

I awake smitten-ed.

Its frightful

How real your dream wants to connect you with reality

Even though dreams, are intangible empty images

Some of which are

Your desires

and your fears

or.

Life's simple happiness.

In my dream last night

I dreamt of touch.

A touch so gentle it made me fly so high; into the sky.

and then in dreams

The faces I witnessed never fail to make me

Wonder why.

Why him, or her.

and Who was that?

I have imagined a non-existent person from scratch before,

with features distinct like

black and white.

I fear this subconsciousness-

this mind that wanders and thinks.

I was afraid someday it would engulf me in

But now

Its not so bad living in this world after all?

ay.

IM MOTIVATING MYSELF HERE OKAY!

ITS OKAY ANNA YEO, YOU LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKES! AND YOU LEARN SOMETHING NEW EACH DAY!:)

ONE SMALL SETBACK SHALL NOT PULL YOU DOWN,

COS THERE IS SO MUCH MORE I HAVE TO CONQUER AND THIS IS JUST THE 20%.

EVEN THOUGH I NEEDED MY ISOLATION AND MUSIC AND SKIPPING TO heal me,

LIFE GOES ON, AND JIAYOU!!!

WORK TOWARDS THAT GOAL ALRIGHT!

AND TRY YOUR BEST, LIKE YOU ALWAYS DO!

=)

TAKE A LEAP OF FAITH AND BELIEVE!

skipping made my legs jelly and my heart RACE 10 times my sedentary heartbeat rate. I felt 'YEAH' cos my blood is finally circulating!!!!!! XD

thankfully i skipped it away and my music to accompany me when i happen to be alone here. :)

my Christian Friend thanks God for every little thing nice.

makes me wonder who I, Myself thank for the simple little pleasures I've ever smiled at.

I always say, "weliveinlife'ssimplepleasures". When I do well, I award it to my hard work. But Have I ever thought why nice things and nice people, like angel, were there?

I was distraught today, despite myself being so strong, and being a girlguide, I retreated to my room, pressed the music on, and my tears came.

COMEONANNAYEO. Its not the end, I know its not. and I have much to go.

COMEONANNAYEO!

=)

This innocence is Brilliance,

Please dont go away.

Times like this when I have so many things to do, I tend to isolate myself, where I figure out how to start going. When Im stressed, I realised I dont talk to people, I dont pick up the phone to message, I dont laugh at jokes. In sec 2, I used to be able to shut myself from the outside world, and I'd scold Carline for not being able to 'close' her ears to external noises whenever we studied in class. haha...
My radio drums... songs I cannot recall because the music is my accompanying background music.
I love encouraging myself, announcing it haha! I'd post it on FB, to tell the world "hey, this is my new conviction, would you help me make it come true too?" :)

I do feel blessed for the acquaintances Ive made in school...
Im happy:)

ay.starsplash

allofthelights;

(kanyewestftrihanna)

Yesterday, we listened to Charice's Pyramid during SEA lecture, to represent soft power:) How cool is that!

Today Im attending my idol JJ Lin Jun Jie's concert! Its the maiden time and I really dont know what to expect...

This week, I have really happy and pissed and happy hahaha!

and I even lunched alone at the deck one morning!!! Because I was happy that morning, I didnt bother at all about self-consciousness, in fact I was soooo happy eating my yong tau foo and felt so blessed to be a part of this world at that moment in time:)

you know that feeling??? that feeling of happiness it didnt bother if you were the only one around and no one knows you, at all! =)

You know about the Merlion Hotel? I have a fetish for 'National' icons and stuff, it exudes a national pride, something everyone, or at least myself , can identify with, and seek to bring across the world! Its the Merlion being boxed up in a makeshift architecture and put to rent as a hotel. It runs till May and open to visitors during the day. There's a viewing panal that overlooks he Marina Bay area, My Favourite Spot in Singapore!!!:):):) hahaha and the box is painted red, to make it stand out from the neutral themed Marina Area, of steel and concrete architecture. I will visit there. I know Angel will go with me cos he appreciates such things but I reckon... anyway, after exams, I will make it there! Do I sound excited? Yes I do=) hahaha.

Seriously, I feel quite happy with my life right now, not that there are no worries and stresses, Just the simplicity that Im coping well, with work and friends, and I couldnt ask for more, and I am contented. Someone told me Im easily contented which might not be a good thing... but. At this moment in time, Im just happy the way I am:)

AY, have a lil bit of Faith, and Believe, you can do it!!!:):)

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