I spoke of many things. I wanted to leave this job to see the world. But Today, I realised, I've done so. For I've seen, the beauty of people around me. People whom I have always perceived as in my AY's Perceptions.

What touched me most, was what my night shift colleague has done. I never expected a guy to do a card, so neatly and sincerely written, with a poem i had randomly penned at work. Poems were a Sec 2 history, a talent that had flowed so willingly like water... But that notebook has already been dumped... yet the poem in the card contained every single word I've composed. I cant help, but to recall why i had penned such an emo poem, to see it only so true-fit on my last day.
He mentioned the lil things i did at work; the chocos i've left for him (but because i didnt eat chocos), the secret exchanges of words and poetry (but it was only because I found it exciting! to await a secret reply everyday... when he stopped replying, i stopped, thought i was overly childish.), the cheerful decoration of stars on our workdesk (i claimed it my playground ever since tt bday celeberation), and the sincere waves of goodbyes everytime you finish your shift and i begin mine (but i logged off super fast...).
I fell silent and sad reading it. didnt know he'd appreciate all these lil everyday acts. didnt know people would ever see such a Prominent meaning behind such simple but honest gestures. Im remorseful, for underestimating him.
today, he prank called at 11am to disturb me. I thought he had been a genuine, angri-fied Respondent. A call, that put me to test, to make me realise certain issues.
My farewell lollipop gift, cannot make up for what I have overlooked:(

Today, was the last day for one of those inspirational talks with Brother Kueh.
WHAT IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN YOUR LIFE?
Have you asked yourself that, ANNAYEO.
people would think money, Happiness, health.
But, RESPECTABLE Bro kueh answered Chances.
it sets me thinking. a whole darn lot.
I used to think that i think alot alot. But i suddenly realised mine were mostly empty, incompleteness that I brood over...

No more such inspirational talks anymore, You'll Learn on YOUR OWN, AY!
and I wished I have the courage to shout that to myself.
Did I cry today? Everytime after whichever job or activity I've gone, I'll feel attached so easily, and leaving and stopping altogether is such a misery. Give me 3 days.


LOVE.
Maybe I'm in too young a position to comment on Love. Do I even know what's Love. But today, i asked if married couples still love each other. Somehow, i feel that my parents no longer know the beauty of Love in itself, they dont communicate. Mum's love for dad is the sense of dutifully providing for him.
But I, cannot feel a hint of their kinda love.


Isnt it amazing how strangers can eventually interact and become good funky friends?? Today, after lunch, we played FRISBEEE at the secret recreation room at level 3 of Singtel:) there was such a big group of 11 of us, old and new! and the two teams, have built a very strong image in my memory forever.


At work, we watched a baby dino soak up water, to grow into what you see now, as Big Dino. Heard of water babies? This, is water-dino. and its true! The look of awe and shock when i opened the tub, brought pure joy and happiness to Vong and I. That was called, laughters.

People come and go huh, how many times must we move on in life, how many people do we meet but manage to keep in touch, how much time to understand people? Its my last day, and I'm very touched with what each individual might have spoken with me today. I might not walk past my market to go to work everyday for 3 1/2 months ever again, but I know the bonds forged is so precioussssssss MY kind of gem, money cannot buy. :)


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census of population 2010.

Oh, mum...

paper planes had to be recycled, AY!

replied every single tag on my FB wall:) thank you.
and i had some wild thoughts seeing a mere FB tag on my wall. haha.
caught up with renjie. its been really long:) like lost total contact.
I dont know when i will run into them again, need their help again, or... associate with them again.
Like how i met Sir Jonathan at PC Show yesterday, it was so nice meeting my senior, who has been a very respected leader in Uniformed group in AMKSS. OMG, he's going FASS and the FIRST person I know who intends to major GEOG too!!!!!
and meeting ex colleague from Watsons 2 years back!
but on FB, sometimes i dont know... who's that whom i have added, who's that who has wished me happy birthday HAHA!!
and that these ppl self-given themselves english names.... OMG... okay, cool. lol.
Every year, i rank every name. For no particular reason. It seems that Virtual World has overtaken any other forms of sincere communication modes... well, we gotto move on, dont we?

Surong aka Monsy:) / Soewhwee / viyond / hongsoon aka bro Kueh / Qingyun / Fazil / Shun Qiang / Shahidah sasquatch / Pamela / Huiteng / Louisa / Eileen / Beijia / Hongwei / Jiajin / Cheryl Tan / JingJing!!! :) / JinJie / Fahmi / Yilin / Vishalini!! / Susan / Luqman / Kianlam / Mingwei / Patricia / Winy / Jiajin / Huiting / Meixin / Angie Mambo / Devi Shree / Aurina / weilin / Xinyi / serene / khee yau / stacy / Guanyi / BoonKeng / Peiqi Pumpkin / Danny aka Garlic Head

- The New and my most treasured friends -

seems like every birthday, including last 2 years' was simple but fulfilling! Fast Food had its fill in my tummy!!

WAY TO GO AY!!!

1 MORE YEAR TO GO! HOPE I'LL STAY YOUNG THEN! HAHA!

:) =)

Photo galore!

My fake muffin

GUESS WHO CUT WHICH STARS!!! CORRECT GUESS GETS A PRIZE.

The cute koala. love that face!

my starry desk, Feels like im in the GALAXY.

My birthday scrolls!!! touching notes huh. someone stole many bubbletea straws haha.

my bday celebration came with DETAILED PLANNING by an engineer. lol

the sasquatch.

SWIMMING DAY!!!!!

lOOKS LIKE BELOW TOO XD!

Qingyun, Jingjing and I
FRIENDS SINCE SECONDARY TWO222222...

7 YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP:)

in the cinema.......

love the streamers created from light!

that's all:)))

I'm sorry I thought that way haha! :)
sasquatch is leaving on tues... aziz on sat, newfren on tues and 25th all of us will be gone, and Cluster A will eventually be invaded! I doubt i will ever have a chance to lay foot there ever again.....

makes me feel loved -

Dear Bloggy, its my birthday celebration today! it was too early, and a tad disorganised, but nevertheless, my party! haha :) Was it a day for me to be 'queen'? haha!
Havent heard my own birthday song in ages... I remember in sec 4 when carline and kianlam came to my playground with a slice of cake, is that considered? But that month mum and I had been in a cold war, sweet 16 aint sweet, ... bad memories *throw away*!!
And i wasnt gonna cry at all alright!! Just that this morning, everything just occurred so quickly like in a Flash.. so peculiar a morning - I had told a teeny white lie at hm, then when i arrived, Shahidah and her bear with their Oh-So-Convincingly-Suspicious expressions!!!! and the next moment I was sitting on my chair in my starry wonderland singing a birthday song to myself... LOL... I didnt have time to comprehend anything, ... A-Ha! and seriously, I hadnt expected it to be today...
I'm sorry I appeared a lil sad; for in actual fact, I really didnt know how I was to react! :) and everything seems jumbled, so I gotto word it down to straighten my thoughts.
Sincerely, Thank You very much Sasquatch Gang for all the effort. The Starry Desk, & the Individual notes meant everything, I might have asked for, if I could choose =)
Sitting at a distance admiring my desk, the starry desk resembles somewhere among the galaxy, so child-like yeah, kiddy, but filled with innocence and freedom - in its freestyle forms and sizes of paper cuttings. I feel different sitting there, and it makes my day, as simple as that. I wished the stars can be Planted there forever, for when i see their scatterings, I feel so happy, pure simple happiness, and I call it Love.
Vong wrote "May the stars at your area represent shooting stars (imagine) and you'll have infinite wishes to last the rest of your life!"
It meant alot. =) and i had thought it once that way too......

The notes were truthfully written. They spelled out who I am, and what I might have been. I'm surprised my colleagues learned about me within a mere 3 months, cause in JC, no one ever joked with me this way, or thought me this way like you all had. You wouldnt imagine. How immersion in work can make people oblivious, and heartless. and its true, I aint this cheerful bubbly girl at all in JC. Devi-L: "your presence in itself makes people happy." Have I? I hope I have, subconsciously. But I wished you guys to be happy too :) You guys make me sound so great and precious.

I love my fairytale wonderland - at my desk.
I love how the big cake makes me feel so wealthy with possession.
The notes that makes me realise;
and I know that no matter how all of you tease me, you care and makes me special:)

I'm deeply grateful=)

Cranes will bring you all hope to share.
It'll give strength, whereever you go, dear friends =)

I guess the little disappointment in TODAY, would be reading edison aka nicholas's note.... Lol... even if he'd been afraid of me due to the scandals of me and him, come on; you could have written at least a HappyBday right?? haha!!

Finally I've changed my phone! It was Dad's phone, using it in remorse, since the day I lost my own birthday phone 1 year ago, gift from mum and dad... Yearned for one I have a true sense of belonging and ownership to. Rightfully mine.
No classy, funky phone, just a humble one to call mine! Sony Ericson W705, and I named it: Red Wee~~~...



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Slurry rapid day wheeeeeeeeeeeeezing pass.

Many people quitting. ClusterA will be quieter. Timbre outing is cancelled. Tomorrow is Thursday like OMG wheezzzeee.... Turned down Huiting's meeting @ Bugis. Dont like attachees. New singtel friends are fun. Night shift ppl are cool. Suspicions aroused. Im speculating. Loved Rainy trip to work this Morn. Everyone's from FASS. Geog oh Geog. Met old acquaintances from Amkss-NY-Singtel. Gotto spend so much money. Aurina is attached!! Cant wait to hear her stories. June omg. Stole azizah's shoe. Still needa meet many ppl. oh no. no time. Everyone's quitting. Will miss them All Badly. Fully packed week! Tmr and Fri nights. Next week busy week! omg too many things happened today. like i cant picture each individual event. so its slurry and wheeezzzing past. OMG. slow down!

Yesterday
I held onto this letter for a moment and wondered where had my dream for 2 entire years struggling in JC gone to. All scepticisms written all over my teachers and peers' faces, but I have proudly refuted them and held true to my Goal.
But yesterday I felt I have treated Goals, simply as a touch-and-go. Something that has kept me persevering, a great motivation since secondary school till JC. But I've forsaken it, eventually. and it is so ke xi. But I wouldnt change my decisions now; due to circumstances. But I need you to know, that It is still my dream course, that was where I had gained confidence from to persevere- 6 Years!

I cant believe I switched like totally. Grades didnt matter, it was all down to my stupid choices. And i got to make this decision of a lifetime! I hear the advices against Geog in FASS. I myself aint sure of what's to come... But you know what? I have determination, and I'll pull through, Do my Best! I cant get EnviroEng, so i put all my efforts in here.

I've done it before, and I can :)
Give me time to garner my strength once more,
and I'll show you! =)




Thursday is coming! Ive already packed into my FILA my sunblock and vaisal and towel and rubber ball and camera and chosen my clothes to wear! Mum said "but its only monday you know." Haha. Its such a simple happiness to anticipate Thursday.

and i didnt mention today:
its someone, who would sit beside me in silence just to watch the world go by... :)



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