http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XZhYWq1dQzs&feature=related

OMG!!!! AMKSS SEC 4 DANCE GROUP DEVOLUTION!!!!!!!!!!
ITS MADNESSSSSSS
SORRY I DONT KNOW HOW TO UPLOAD THE YOUTUBE VIDEO HERE!!!
GO WATCH!!!!
THEY ARE SO DAMN GREAT LA
OMG!!!! ITS SO COOLL!
click it! HAHA!

For the SECOND TIME in the life of ANNA YEO, she addressed the entire school.
it was not perfect, neither was it a flop, but she overcame - a stage phobia, and she did not cringe once at the thousand eyes peering at her... amidst the muffled laughters she turned a deaf ear. For she was prepared. To overcome this obstacle, this Feat. How many timid people really made it up there in their lifetimes? She wasnt afraid of the crowd, but... her own voice. How ironic.
You didnt hear it wrong. The quivering voice. Because she has never intended to mimic a 5 year old kid. Neither did she want to adorn that actcute voice. The consequence? She sounded like a monotonous nightingale... no, a robot. it lacked emotion and confidence.
But she did it, and survived the week. Every morning it seemed so tough, a dread to awake.
On the first day, she dreamt she took the wrong bus and that she had alighted at her self pathed road to her primary school. Next day, she dreamt she lost her phone in the school canteen. The third day she forgot to report to the school office early in the morning... the fourth day, she finally dreamt of her classmates from 0802 for once in her life of NYJC.
She took comments in stride and heeded advices =) thank you dear friends who Believed in her. Thank goodness the teacher in charge was so fatherly and kind and never once instructed her on mistakes. He gave her a kinder bueno chocolate today for being top 5 for geog in the cohort! =) He has become her favourite teacher! XD
and I DID IT.

and i pulled through Blood donation drive. the first event i have ever taken charge of ever since, without teachers' guidance. Yea. i'm proud of it. Because we refuted them aggressively against a Lame idea. and that we indeed tried our best. and we broke the previous record by 3! =) 118 units of blood. I really wanna acknowlege the members' efforts and the donors who were willing to make a difference in others' lives. Thank you for donating. =)

MAMBO visited my blog. I wonder how my dear friend is doing. Havent seen her for 7 months, for what seemed like EONS... mambo is still mambo. Am i still the same? Havent talked to surong for several weeks for what seemed like years. How is my dear friend coping in school? my Heroine dragongirl. (dragon boat)

i miss ANG MO KIO HUB so much. No, not the shopping centre. The usual meeting place greenies gather every morning without fail. Though its only been a week since i gotto make announcements every morn. I feel i have missed out so much, far too much it makes me miss so badly.
And i declared i would be a HAPPIER person next week.
I already am. =)
it will come back very very soon.
but if only everything was so simple...

cheryl low gave me a hug in the canteen when i chanced upon her and called out her name today. what's wrong cheryl? it might have given me hope, it might have worried me... but all i can rememeber is how i almost teared, when you mouthed to me - 'are you okay?' in the same canteen several several days ago... when you saw my troubled face.

and i hear amos chia and khee yau shuting 'GO ANNA!' when they set up the microphone for morning assembly... (they are from ava). Its helped. =)

no more procrastination. i 'm gonna clear backlog this weekend. i can settle down now.

AY.STARSPLASH.12.10.07 revive this resurrection
we are one.

dear bloggy,
how does it feel without your phone for a day?
i feel i try to sense the vibration of the phone on my laps less... but (as if i often recieve receive calls and msgs... haha)
today i sent my phone for service to upgrade cause my security code (where on earth did it come out from?) was invalid!

and today i immersed in the bustle of the city
something i have not felt since so long...
i felt like i just wanna linger there...
but Fu____* PW bothers me so much...
teacher called me to say he doesnt understand our WR at all.. that we are gonna fail Pw..
okay. i got it.


today, mum didnt go with me after all.. her ear had some problems so she went to see the doc alone, while dad and i went to attend the ceremony.
=(
i havent gone out with mum for so long. =(
makes me wanna cry...
even longer with the entire family...
i'm going out alone agian tmr to collect my phone from orchard...
i miss going out with mum.

quite a fun day today, watching the rain at the busstop while awaiting the bus's arrival...
and shopping with dad.
eating lotsa nice food...

but a little thing upsets me...
the drudgery of school weighs everything down, like ba ba boom...
mug hard anna yeo.

ay.stasplash.
abit more, a lil' wee bit more.

today there was a sudden fire alarm while i was engrossed in Method Of difference after school!!! they purposely planned a chaotic time to carry out the drill!
and today took class photo... didnt condition my hair, i'm not gonna order the photos...
and today guanyi told me his mum has gone back to china and he's gonna hold a party this saturday!!!! so naughty!!!!! cheat his mum!!!! bbq! campfire burning! haha... ...

I'm looking forward to mum going hilton hotel with me this sat for a ceremony.
i think missing her presence makes me enter depression soon. Again?!!!

Red cross has been haunting me... i dont mind. i just want YOU to leave me alone so that i can study and get my studies done. its as simple as that. i was so stressed over stupid blood donation drive yetserday...
i didnt mind if you relinquish my position as president. Its just a name... i dont know how i have gotten it... the seniors might have been disillusioned by me during the interview... i dont know, i just know surong was encouraging me on, having the untold faith for me in her adamant voice, and my Girl Guides - UG spirit taught me to only mention the highest post, to fight for what i can achieve... maybe i am too much a nut! doing exactly what i have been taught without contemplating bout the feasibilities...
i felt like a mutant yesterday. i controlled the anguish tears on the bus ride home, and while eating i mustered my courage with a mouthful of noodles to tell mum the complications for RC... she didnt see the tear, nor hear the quivering voice of a weakling. for once, i wished my mum could see it and bother.
i feel like a mummy's girl.
but i was cracking at the edge. i Wanted to fall.

Merry thoughts at school - Exciting sakura meal on 08/08/2008 discussion with goddess auri, and the true blue heartfelt talks with peiling in class, were unable to overpower the emotional turmoil last evening.
everything just went ba ba boom.
when the afternoon i had spent lazing in the gentle drizzle outside LT 4 so fairytale like, juxtaposed aginst this Blackish nightmare ( see the POWER of BLACK?)
reflects just 1 thing of my incompetence...
i miss a goddess's leading and teaching... =(
childish girl.
i miss mrs chung. I do not respect a teacher who's slack, neither will she ever Gain my respect. I am disappointed. i have given up.
With her, with this CCA.
I'd be better off helping teh community.
Its too late to cry over spilt milk, Anna yeo.
unless she kicks me out... not till i accomplish my nyaa Gold.
evil?

and i thought crying it all out last night and a tight sleep will patch everything in order...
sleep early Pufferfish!
you have phototaking tmr you cannot cry anymore.
i thought a tight sleep and i'd reawake a tad stronger.
Yes. But the scaffolding still came crashing with a touch.



If writing and writing can resurrect my presence
i will replenish the ink with droplets.
This is where,
My home sweet Home.
Four walls keep me protected-

From the pelter... Of Humankind.


ay.starsplash.
i love HOME.

Dont test my patience.. says:
u noe
Dont test my patience.. says:
it doesnt matter if its the farewell or nt
Dont test my patience.. says:
cause its always with us that we belong there
ay no, Not yet. 12.10.07 says:
yup.





its really nice talking to DAVE PERRY SAM today! 2/5 0'5 0'6 0'7.
=)

The several buses NUMBER 70M that vrooms across my vision makes me yearn.
For ba yue ba ri ling ba nian...
that's 08/08/2008.
will it come true? tell me it will, when my closest friends of 4/5 0'6 0'7 basked in the stars' love on esplanade's rooftop... =)
i didnt want to return home that early yet mum had called me to scold me...
that Bus NUMBER 70M goes there straight, but i have never had the chance to take it all the way home alone... i waited 45 minutes yet it still does not arrive.
I LOVE LONG BUS RIDES.
its thursday...
the next day is national day.
i sincerely hope the girls will not backout, them like amanda or peiqi...
those who nodded their heads and blatantly responded to my irriatting persuasions for an 'OKAY!' on 12/10/2007.
i remember the promises.
Do not break them or you'll break my Heart.
Many times.
Greeny-gang, my dearest friends, will be ever be there again?

ay.starsplash.
imissittoomuch.
yet nothing is certain anymore.

MyJuniors at school, dear friends, alma mater dear...
tonight the intelligent ones and those who persevered will be receiving their awards.
but i will not be there to watch jingjing give her truthful speech, my close friends' stride up the stage, nor my respected junior cadets.
But i feel their pride.
The greeny spirit-
never flailing.
:)

i passed all my subjects.
Finally. i have waited so long, uncertain of everything...
Results sow discord, results hurt, results make me lose myself.
i cannot believe what my good friend said.
i pointed to the 3 marks in that column and declared that i did not study that topic on weathering. Can you believe what she replied?
'I dont believe'.
she does not believe that i had truthfully neglected the topic on weathering and focused on plate tectonics alone to obtain my 34/50 marks.
disappointment.
i know truly well what i dislike others to do to me. i am a person who's intimately aware of myself... my conscience is clear.
maybe its time to just keep my mouth shut and patch up the protective shield so that i am kept safe.

am i to believe what others tell me otherwise? its too tempting, curious.
i dont wish to compete, with a friend. probably afterall she's merely my buddy? i cant determine anything anymore.
i did not believe when they told me you kept counting and recounting my scores... i did not believe you actually said that.
i'm confused.

if its my own expectations, can i be given the liberty not to be satisfied with 1 mark away from an A grade? may i be given the right to smile and exclaim? will i be forgiven if i upset those around me? but i cant.
if you tell me i 've obtained well enough to compare with others? Think. Havent you yourself done the same thing - 'i think i will get an E for xxx....' 'Er... i think i will be geting a B or a C.'
mean, results are mean. hate results. I'm sick of this demeaning cycle.

so sad and confused.
over what you said.
today.
yesterday too,
over what i saw-
i saw two persons.
it broke.
abandon an empty fallacy,
anna yeo.

i want to reconstruct this world - i once abandoned - where no one can decipher, where i fight solo,
a heart heavy enough so it wouldnt waver.

ay.starsplash.
i'm getting it. finally.

slacking slacking this entire week, ever since i returned from camp me being disorientated...
anyway, next week i shall start studying, must read genomics... haiz...
and there's this secret i found about somebody... ...
nvm...
study hard anna yeo!

no, i cant trust my friend,
i cant listen to everything she says.
is that considered backstabbing?
if i dont see it with my own eyes,
i will not believe what she says of my friend.

Yea. i got an AAAAAAA for chem!!!
and 44 /70, BBBBBBBB for math, initially i had 39 marks but they cheated me of some marks... =)
and geog on friday! i'm so excited...
bio is expected yea...
Gp just passed.. i will buck up! =)
will i get my chicken rice after all?....
haha!

you know people tell me others say they cant do well but they did superb..
they admit they didnt complete their paper but they soared...
they had high marks but they claim they are lousy....
they are deemed as hypocrites.
But sometimes you really do not know you could do that amazingly, you didnt know you exceeded your expectations, probably you did not reach your desired expetations of oneself...... its natural and its perfectly fine...
but i no longer say these out lest people shall presume who i am.
i had done these before. and i do not comment on what people say
now.

ay.starsplash.chix rice!!!

Resurrection.
The instructor used that word and i found it so COOL and abstarct i shall use it! =)

The plane cruised -
a buzzing distraction
yet i wished i was in there...

back from camp! made new friends, my group consisted of really nice people!!! there was actually 17 of us, but 1 girl who couldnt atke he approach of a tekan-facilitation kinda camp decided to leave camp... =( sorta disappointing.but the rest of us cooperated really well, DIGGORY!!! our group name, behind the brians of Harry Potter... there was litearally no conflicts nor disagreements! =) furthermore with the familiarity of guanyi fungi and monsy i felt really at ease. =)

The plane flew past
i lost track of time,
lost count of days.

Seriously, i felt like a zombie during the entire camp... ever since i laid foot into changi coast adventure centre i just followed the schedule and did things as they were. Everything. i didnt know what i was doing i didnt even know if i wanna do them, i just did it- because we were supposed to do it.
i felt i wasnt there at all, i felt i'm just an empty shell. i couldnt think straight so i merely kept mum.

into the whirlpool.

the first day of kayaking was like ^#I92jw//1XX^7(+#@//?X
i just couldnt row straight - LOL i cant swim!!!! and the sea was so DAMN choppy la... because tehre was a pending thunder storm.. ytou can imagine you row 30 coma nd you are being pushed back 50 cm... i was so demoralised... i was always the last, my kayak went round and round in cirlcle and i didnt dare to capsize, i mean rock yourslef to submerge your head first into the sea!!!! oh man!
so i anyhow turn, then my legs got stuck and i panicked, so i anyhow kicked the water here there everywhere... and i surfaced spewing water outta my mouth....................... towards the trainer's face. oh man!!!!!!!!!!!!! and so taht's how i got blacklisted. forever.
and i am remebered for not being able to kayak well, monsy muqin and i hoped atht it would rain so we need not continue with the underwater 'wizardry'... but in the end i had to row out to sea on my own and rescue and yes. capsizing. i hate it. made me lose hope.
but today's final practice was the test and i passsed!!!!!! i am a ONE star kayaker now... although i sincerely doubt its credibility...
the trainer was inspiring, he talked to us how important it was to lsiten to instructions given by anyone( in this case, himself as the instructor) and recounted how a kayak skirt almost climed his life when he sat for the 2-star kayaking course in sec 2... and yold us to hold onto our JC life... quote: you better not F*** up your jc life or you will be ruined...
he believed in me, he did not scold me despite my incessant NOOB-ness... he patiently gave me chances time and again... i'm touched. =)
it was frustrating, with sand mud seaweed twigs all over your legs, your 2 feet above a mushysand massage pad within your shoes...with soaked feet wrinkling like an old hag's... smelly shoes... =( disgusting...
the bin was piled up with shoes thrown away after the kayaking course...
the kayaks are darn heavy!!!1 and guniang people merely hold their dainty socks and stroll to and forth while muqin and i trekked the breakwaters about 10 times to clear the loaded kayaks... =(
we were the heroines.. Yeah...
and the boys kept approching up to try to capsize us and muqin and i rowed and rowed and screamed and screamed... in the end we decided to jump into the water volunteerily.. haha
We aew YOUNG PALAWANS!!!1 as our kayak instructor called us, because he imagined changi beach was palawan beach and we were teh rowers there... YEAH PALAWANS!!!!! such a cool name!!!
there was this devilish ringing voice with me shouting out why i always end up with the most unlucky tasks.... i vilunteered to clean the toilets on day 2 while the rest were already snugly on the wooden bunk planks... and today my entire group had to manage the toilets once more before breaking camp. MAN!!! can you imagine how filthy and messed they were? the girls' bin wa spield with shoes and female stuff and oh gosh! it was over flowing so muqin and i picked them up one by one to clear them. who will be willing to do it? i just felt i would do the job well because i shall do. for the group. i feel proud of myself...when my friends complained and refused to even clear the gully holes... how do you expect water to flow to clear the FLOODED cubicles!!!!!!!!? dumbo! just use the edge of the toilet broom to sweep the hair clogging the gully hoels away la!!!! i was so furious with their stupidity and ignorance, or purely hackcareness... telling me only that they know nuts about housework. disappointment.
its me again.
haiz.

as i watch the plane leave
i saw you watching it too.
will we watch it together
i must be dreaming.

the girls were just taking their own sweet time, ignorant of scarcity of 1 or 2 minutes, making the entire group wait for them.. Selfish. Monsya nd i could have gone to the loo, tided up stuffs, but still reach teh destination much earlier than teh strolling them... i'm just so fed up !!!!!!!!!!!! for I'm proud to be a Guide, trained by professional Uniformed group people in Amkss...
Hopeless.
that's how i felt.
i was angry with them.

i saw you.
did you see me?
i watched...

campfire was such a letdown... few people were high, the jumping urge to sing and play within me found no means to escape... i sat right infront (where noone wants to be) and stoned with a sleepy monsy. Yule ball, aht's what its called... our waltz section of the campfire... awkwardess. refusal to step outta my protective shell. i avoded standing around a lil' wee bit so i just partnered cheryl tan!!! and danced with her! it was fun!!! after all... XD i'm glad to ahve cheryl tan teaching me, not getting fed up with my noob mistakes... =)
that's what true friends are for! XD
then i told fungi i would dance the 30th dance headstrong with him, then randy bro came then pulled me to the front...sorry sorry!!!
okay! i was SO SO SO high during the dance!!!!! becuase, i love it! haha, love that part to bits and pieces, dancing with someone i know=) haha... XDXDXDXD
in front...

i tried to wave to you but the broom dropped.
strangers,
wake up anna yeo.
back to the four walls of concrete jungle,
my heart adrifts further.
i miss the sound of the monstrous hovering torpedo-like jetplanes
and the treacherous sea.

my legs are flawed...=( so many scratches, my feet are blistered form the sandy sand bed in my shoes which i wore for an entire day... my hair is in a perfect frizzy and sundried condition my skin is itchy with sandflies' intrusion...=(

no, i aint cheerful
i'm merely an emo kid!

i miss the friends who helped me along who made me smile. who made me belong... i miss the sound of planes taking off and the beckoning of the sea.
Your silhouette.
many reflected that i was a cheerful girl... dont judge a book by its cover, you will shriek if you know how emo i can be... haha.

back to school
wake up my senses!!!! they are numbed-immuned... results...=(
i survived the not-tough camp. (there was 6 hours of sleep time)
YAY!
I DID IT!

ay.starsplash.
looked for you.

DANGit! everytime after dad uses the com to check his ever piling heaps of emials my blogger wont work after that! the font bar wouldnt appear! its tried and tested! HUH!

got back 2 subjects today.
i'm still uncertain about the other 3 subjects, i want to pass pass pass..., pass all, and it would be so nice...i want the chicken rice so badly. but i have to deserve it. =X
merely passed my GP, 23/50... yeah, pass, i shouldnt be too satisfied right? and people exclaimed - You Passed! okay, i give up on compos... like like in sec 4 always borderline passing my compo and letter writing, but compre shall pull me up!!! and i'm determined to pick up on my essays! Yes.

fungi appeared so down today. i felt so helpless that i could do that little to cheer him up... and so the only thing i could do was to message him a ' cheer up, mushrooms shall not give up'... i guess it was a fruitless help... nevertheless...


anyway today i want to tell you bout my dream! reached home at 12 plus pm from school and slept then i dreamt of GREENYGANG!!! XD yea, the usual guys and girls... we visited places like citilink mall, newton mrt(which i dont know why), and raffles place mrt, its not the scene of places we would normally see in singapore, it was very dark and gloomy, and the structures around were old and wornout( through torrents of rain and shine), then we walked across the underpass to the other entrance where we had to decide between going down the underpass leading to the Newton way or the Raffles one, and we decided on the raffles route.
change scene... you know the underpass beneath esplanade?... (i suddenly miss espalnade so much, used to go there several times a year.. 8/8/2008? does it still hold true?), there's a stretch of wall for art displays?-
yup, along some path in my fantasy world, randy and the guys were walking so slowly lagging far behind, so the others and me strayed to this path where there is this wall with mural paintings on display. and i scrutinised them all so meticulously... and guess what, THEY MOVED!!!! omg! they are all paintings of a teenage girl with flowing hair, a lil' mermaid-like kinda lady, the paintings were mainly turqoise blue in colour, and there was this picture whose background was lightning and strong gallows of wind, aurina was telling me look at the wind sorta like engulfing (yes! that's the word! engulfing - wrapping up, surrounding) the lighting flashes... but what i was focusing on was that the wind moved!......
the wind made her flowing hair change directions, and the wind (gusts) appeared to be there and gone the next!
and there was one more picture with the lady's left eye tearing... there was this stream of 'tears' flowing down her cheek, and it was a lil' tingy red and the stream moved!!!!! gosh! i was... flabbergasted, stupefied, encaptured, mesmerised, drawn into that inexplicable whirlpool of power. and i bugged auri to notice it but to no avail... its true okay!
probably by sleeping more and dreaming i can become an artist, i literally pictured these lifelike masterpieces in my mind with such intricate details.... i mean, i myself am awed by my subconscious mind too....




sometiems you just wanna continue with that fantasy kingdom and never leave... =)



dont like packing bags for camps, i will end up lugging tortoise shells to and fro school. those around me arent that looking forward to LTC either... i will miss my bed. =(


ay.starsplash.
see you!

Today went on smoothly after all.
which i didnt expect... well my group member didnt turn up, and then i banged the door a TAD too hard.. then i opened it again to apologise.. haha
yea. i was angry and frustrated. Who wants to turn up for bloody PW? but we just had to, for the group, cant implicate them even if i fail... and i juts emoed and edited my rightful part so engrossed... then i tired out, and off i went for eco house... hope we'll win.
Thank GOODNESS pw had ended for the week, if thsi had continued i would have dreaded School and all my members... Phew.

this person on my tagboard- if i'm not mistaken, its sarcasm, maybe i suspect too much, but i feel that, its me, this is my blog.
yeah. My blog.

today i returned to alma mater dear to collect my SGC, randy came so late later, and i met guo hao and cybil, who enjoys their tertiary life. Ms lew wrote my testimonial quite truly, though it might just be colourful words, yet i know the words are truth only i will know... =)
and gosh!!! Mrs Ong Huiyin is such a walking goddess man! i can swear she is the prettiest teacher i will ever know, as she sashayed down the aisle of the General office and - - - as though a glow of light revolved around her!!!! man!!!! that kinda beautiful glow!!! oh gosh.... and she was talking to her husband Mr ong in mandarin... haha
Ms Deepa has grown so slim!!!!!!!!! oh my god!!! i was stupefied with what she wore, that kinda mermaid fitting skirt and a tucked in blouse, oh, that's just so professional man!
and Ismail is all greened from head to toe. Lime-green, to be exact.
Saw mrs chung and the guides! i sat with them and helped them pack the packaged food boxes... such a nice feeling... =)
i knew the effort the participants put in for NOMAD, going home late every day at the expense of their studies. felt i needed to recognise them...
Though sitting on the large sofa outside the bookshop made me feel lonely and like an alien, i knew i was part of it and i felt the urge to watch IT, even though i didnt intend to attend ever since my name wasnt in the booklet in 2006... well, i was so disappointed. Very.
but no one seems interested to attend tmr night, okay, we shall not atend then...
but its free ... haha

all of a sudden i dont know how to pack my bag for LTCamp anymore, i'm just staring at the item list and stoning... ...
see you on
MONDAY.
=)

ay.starsplash.
didnt feel like talking in sch.
haiz.
its a happy evening.=)

replaced this old blog skin... i feel ... more stabilised. LOL...
i hate school,
really wish i will get sick tommorrow...
i dont look forward to LTC (leadership training camp)
i dont want to go to school.
i was sewing beanbags for eco house project with auri and the needle DISAPPEARED in a split second. cant find it anywhere.
i reckon i might have swallowed it...

luckily there arent any lessons this week or i might have gone bonkers.
if i enter it again, i seriously think i might...
i cant stop it... =(

ay.starsplash.ihateschool.
are you happy now?

Yea, Everyone is usking the Fxxxxxx word here and there, yesterday and today.
and i just spouted this coarse word early this morning...
whatever la.
yesterday on my bed i wished i would get a high fever and fall so ill this morning so i need not come to school... ha-ha

Last night i went online in DISTRESS.
i'm serious.
there's no more chicken rice...

ay.starsplash.
be gone.

i dont blog about school because nothing will change a schoollife.